Pursuing not your dream course : Not my story

What do you want to be when you grow up?

On your younger years, have you been asked with this question? Or do you also ask this question to someone who’s younger than you?

This question is quite famous to kids. I think at some point in our lives, we have been asked with this question, or at least, the same message that this question have. And as a kid, it was so easy to answer this question.

As a kid, we call it dreams. And back then, we are all dreamers. And usually, our dreams are influenced by the people around us, by our environment. May it be our parents, siblings, some relatives, from the TV shows that we are watching, and we can even dream to be a ninja or a superhero back then.

But growing up, these dreams might change. Well, there are some people who have the same dream since they were a child, but mostly, or at least in my experience, it wasn’t the case for me.

Now let me share to you a story of how a young student pursued not her dream course.

Her dream in her childhood days.

On my nursery days, I dreamt about being a nurse. When I graduated in elementary, it changes to being a teacher, when I graduated in High School, that’s when I know that I want to be an accountant.

It’s changing yes, but that one dream that I have when I graduated High School was the solid one. College can be life changing, the courses that we will take is the one that will determine on what career path we will have in the future, so I really think hard about being an accountant. Back then, I feel like it is really for me. It fit my skills, hobby and passion at the same time.

Reason of not pursuing that dream

But then, things happened. I applied to the University where I want to study and I am lucky enough to pass the CAT or the College Admission Test. Now, as a requirement before being eligible to enroll at BS Accountancy, I need to be part of the first 400 qualifiers from the CAT to take the qualifying exam. Again, luckily, I’m part of those top 400.

I thought I’m already near on taking my dream course. I am nervous, yes. But I am confident that I reviewed a lot. I practiced making those worksheets. From the proper and correct journal entry, then making a worksheet, I mastered it all. I did what I was told because they say, basing from the previous qualifying exam, correct worksheet have a lot of percentage in the score so I was really proud when I learned to do that.

And oh, by the way, only top 100 will passed from the qualifying exam. And then, d-day comes. But the exam was so much different from what I have expected. Worksheet isn’t present. But I didn’t lose hope. Morning session of the exam and it was going smoothly. I am confident on almost all of my answers. But then, I guess afternoon session is not for me. I don’t have any idea on any of the questions because we never tackled and study that lesson on Senior High School.

It was frustrating spending hours there, just sitting, because I cannot really think of an answer. To cut the story short, I didn’t pass the qualifying exam. Then I applied again to another course which is BS Management Accounting, by taking that course, I have the chance to shift to BS Accountancy by taking the exam on the following year with the assurance that the units that I will take on that year will be credited.

I hope I had the chance there but the college opened that course to non-ABM strand so sadly, I didn’t got in too. So what I will I do now? I asked myself. On my CAT application form, my original second choice of course is BS Psychology. I checked the qualification and I saw that I am qualified. However, I was reminded of the 2 years that I spent on my Senior High School being an Accountancy, Business and Management student or ABM.

I don’t want those years to go to waste that’s why I decided to take BS Business Administration instead. Now, the problem is the major, we have three choices at the college, Marketing Management, Human Resource Development Management and Economics.

I find Economics hard so that was out of the list. In the end, I decided to take Marketing Management as my major without even knowing why. I was so lost. I don’t even know if I am in the right path. And I forgot to mention that I didn’t apply to other Universities so I feel like I don’t really have a choice.

Her Realizations

Then that was the time when I was reminded that what I am doing is to plan for myself alone. I just realized that I am not including the Lord on my plan. I planned this and that, I feel so sure on my dream course without even asking God if it is His will for me.

I planned without Him without knowing that He already have His plans ready for me. I act and seek for my own ways, not knowing that I am slowly disconnecting with Him.

So I took Marketing and never did I imagine that I will enjoy it. I really enjoyed my first year. I’ve been to two National Conference for Marketing students and I am more inspired to push through.

Then another dilemma came in, before enrollment on our 2nd year, I have found out that we can now shift for a different course. I was contemplating whether I will pursue my current course or just abandon those one year and start a new for my dream course.

Praise God that this time, I let myself to be guided by Him. I prayed that day, before I start my personal devotion. “Lord, should I stay or should I shift?”, that was the exact question that I asked Him. And as I read His words, this specific sentence caught my attention: “What I have written, I have written”. And it was problem solved. I asked Him directly, and here’s His direct answer.

So I obeyed Him, I pursue my course and I’m happy with it. I am still in the process of discovering my skills In relation to my course, I can still feel that I’m lost sometimes, but I am always being reminded that this is God wants me to be. I can’t see the purpose now, but one day, I will. In His own perfect time.

CONCLUSION

Truly, God is faithful. We can plan all we want, but let us remember that God’s plan is the best plan. And we should always seek His plan and His will in our lives. There are times where we may feel that we are failing because we cannot get or achieve the things that we want, but let us see those failures as a redirection to the right path that God have prepared of us.

Let us treat closed doors as a way that can lead us to the right one.

How about you? Are you able to pursue your dream course? I would really love to know your story.

This article is written in collaboration with @immaryandmerry as part of my Write with Me Program. Actually this is all her story and I will have my part 2 for my own story. So if you would like to be part of my program, please let me know in the comment section.

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