Hello beautiful people!
I hope you all are doing fine amidst of the shortcomings and uncertainties we may feel day by day. Always remember that a positive life is a happy life. ✨
14th of how many.
"I hope you will be a good person just like you are now when you grow up."
"Its okay if you will not be an honor student as long as you will pass all your grades."
"Do not take everything as a competition so that you will not be pressured with the things around you."
"Pursue your dreams so that you will not become like me in the future."
"Be contented of what you have now. Be grateful and always thank God for giving you so much blessings day by day. "
These are the common words my mom always reminds us her children ever since. She's been raised accordingly that is why she wanted to raise us as good as she wanted it to be. My mom started to be a working student since her elementary up until college years. It was hard for her to be away from her own family and stand on her own, however she's just blessed enough to be landed to a family who treated her as their own child. My mom finished her degree in Elementary Education by her own hard work. However, things seems not to be destined for her. She was not able to pass the Licensure Examination for Teachers and did not pursue it anymore. She admitted that she was discouraged that time and regretted not trying again. And that is when she took another path to try her luck.
Because of her experiences, I tried my best to pay it off at least. I studied well during my elementary and highschool years and graduated with flying colours. In college, I took Secondary Education as I wanted to finish the profession she wasn't able to get done completely. However, I haven't taken the exam for teachers and I do not have a licensed yet. That just means that I haven't completed what I tried to do for my mom.
And just earlier, she called me and shared that my older brother called her saying that, "Basin di na na mag maestra si Pinang ma." (maybe she will not pursue on becoming teacher anymore.) And with that, I got to asked myself. Am I? Is that what they are seeing me right now? Are they thinking that I may not pursue in continuing it? To be honest, as of the moment I do not have the plan yet. We are not financially stable and I need to work hard to provide their needs. It is not easy to be a teacher right after graduation, to be a public teacher to be exact. A lot of process needs to be followed. A lot of paper works need to be taken care of. As much as I wanted to process and work on it right away, I cannot as I do not have any finances to do so. I am the one who is actually making money to provide all of our needs. But that does not mean I do not have a plan on doing it anymore. I have. I just need time. I just need to be more prepared. I do not want to dive in to any situation without getting ready. I am preparing myself for it.
With the work I have right now, I am not just working for the sake of working. I am loving what I am doing. I am happy and contented with what I have. I am learning and I am growing. I grew a lot to be exact. I can say that with the environment I have right now I changed a lot. A good change. I got to receive promotions at work. And I got to receive good feedbacks from the higher ups and that what made me wanted to continue what I am doing.
I am not sure what the future holds for me. I am not sure if the path I am taking right now is the right path for me. I am not sure if things will be on the way I wanted it to be in the future. What I am sure of, is I am making the best out of it. I am enjoying what I have. I am happy that I can provide. I am a little girl with a big dreams for my family. I wanted them to be proud of me.
Ma, are you proud of me?
To someone up there, please give my mom more years. I wanted to make her the proudest.
That's all for today beautiful people. I apologize if my thoughts are not organized, I am really not well and fine today but I tried to write one. I hope you learned and get something good about my article for today. If you have any thoughts and take away about this piece, feel free to leave it in the comment section below. Let's interact. Stay safe always! Xoxo ✨☺️
- MissJo 💜
I think that is what we all want, that our parents could have many more years. You are in a tough situation. You can tell your mom about it and for sure she will understand.