Hello beautiful people!
I hope you all are doing fine amidst of the shortcomings and uncertainties we may feel day by day. Always remember that a positive life is a happy life. ✨
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These past few days, my circles were asking me when I am planning to be in a relationship again. And I was like, "What? It was a sudden question I did not expect to be asked." Well, I cannot blame them though as in the group, I am the only single. Two of them is in a relationship and the other one has already a special someone and any days from now they can really be official. They always tried to pair me out with someone, and get to know them. But you know, I just don't feel like doing it. I am not a picky person, I just don't like it for now. They tried to ask me why, and I got these several reasons given to them.
My attitude could never. These past few days, I am actually getting moody and irritated easily. I am impatient and if something is not getting in my way the way I wanted it to be, I will get annoyed right away. My friends told me, that there may be someone that can understand my attitude and willing to help me change it. I actually agreed that may be there is. However, I do not want to change it just because of that person. I do not want to change it just because he helped me do it. I wanted to change my attitude because that it is what I need to do and I wanted to do it by myself. I do not want to depend to anybody for the change I want. All of it should start within me. I do not want that he/she needs to bare with the negative attitude I have just because we are in a relationship. I better change first before diving into it. Ayokong iba yung magbabago ng ugali ko. Gusto ko ako. Kasi pag nawala siya, posible bumalik ulit ako sa dating ako.
I am not yet complete. I am happy with what I have now and I am fine with it. I am happy but I know I am not yet complete. That there is still something missing in me and I wanted to find it myself. I wanted to find that piece that will complete my existence. Maybe it be something that is just around the corner and I do not know what it is yet. Soonest, maybe I will be able to finally find that missing piece. I wanted that before I will jump into relationship, I need to make sure that I am happy. Genuine happiness. Ayokong iba ang bubuo ng nawawala kong piraso. Kasi pag umalis siya, masisira ulit ako.
I am not ready to commit. Selfish as it may seem, but yes. I do not want to commit for now. With the first two reasons I have, I can say I am not yet ready. In my past article, I stated there that I am building walls and boundaries. That is not because I do not want to be in a relationship, but because I know I am not yet ready and I do not want to waste time getting on it and just ending it after because it did not turn out well. I am a person that gets attached and fall in love easily. You show me sweetness and all, I'll fall for that. I do not want it to be that easy. I do not want to be in a relationship because of the pressure I am receiving, I've been there and it did not turn out well and I am trying not to be on the same situation again. It was not easy. I was hurt that time. I wanted to make sure that it will be my own decision, both my mind and heart's decision that I will be in a relationship again. Ayokong magmadali dahil yun yung nakapaligid sakin. Mas pipiliin kong maghintay ng sigurado kesa masaktan ulit ako.
There's no sure and definite in life. Even love is considered a gamble. But even in gambling, it needs preparation. May it be win or lose, atleast you are prepared with the outcome. And with love, I am doing the same thing. I know that the person I may meet along the way, can be the one for me and can be not. But atleast, I am well prepared and I can keep my mind sane for whatever may happen. It is always better to keep it that way. There is no wrong in guarding our heart. I am just protecting what has been hurt for many times. I may experience it again, but maybe this time I will know how to handle it. Experience taught us lessons, and it depends on us how we are going to apply it in ourselves.
That's all for today beautiful people. I hope you learned and get something good about my article for today. If you have any thoughts and take away about this piece, feel free to leave it in the comment section below. Let's interact. Stay safe always! Xoxo ✨☺️
- MissJo 💜
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Just like what they say, love when you are ready not because you are lonely. I understand why your friends want you to have someone in life but I believe that love will just eventually happen especially when you are ready. And I totally agree. You should never change something about you just because of someone. Change because you want to change. 😉