And somehow we chose to be on that situation. Not because we do not want a help from someone, but because we just do not want to be a burden for them. Knowing they might have their own battles too. And after all, we really have to depend on ourselves.
Hilom is a Bisaya word means, silence or to be quiet.
Hilom is a Tagalog word means, heal or to heal.
And I wanted to emphasize, Healing in silence.
Human as we are, it is natural for us to feel pain. Pain from heartbreak. Pain from failure. Pain from losing someone permanently.
And with this pain, with this heartache, with this sad feeling, we really need someone to help us get back to our original self. We need someone to help us ease the pain. We need someone to put a patch on our heart.
But have you tried picking yourself alone from a high fall? Have you tried fixing alone what has been broken? Have you tried to heal in silence?
Personally, I did. A lot of times.
And it was not easy. Fighting the hardest battle alone. It was last August, when I reached the peak of my emptiness. I actually shared it here as well.
That was the darkest time of my life that I even thought of ending my own. I am happy outside, but my heart was crying. My mind was in chaos. And my body was weak. I just kept on doing the same routine everyday like I am just programmed to do it. That I have no choice but to do it.
I always wanted to open up to a friend. To share the heaviness I felt with my mom. But decided not to. Because they might have their own burdens and I do not want to add up.
And I decided to just feel the pain. And when I get tired, I composed my mind. It was hard. A voice from another side was telling me to be drowned by the pain. And the other side was to stand up and get healed. And I chose the other side. To heal, with myself. In silence.
It was a long ride. A roller coaster one. But I managed to win.
What I did when I chose to heal in silence? I just kept it myself. Social media knew nothing. I used the powerful weapon. Prayer. I heal and pray in silence. I let God to enter my heart. Talked to Him and let Him completely heal me after doing my part.
And He did not disappoint. And He will never.
That's all for today beautiful people. I hope you learned and get something good about my article for today. If you have any thoughts and take away about this piece, feel free to leave it in the comment section below. Let's interact. Stay safe always! Xoxo ✨☺️
- MissJo 💜
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