Secrets turn into regrets
I remember asking my grandmother how she met her "the one" her "first love"
She stopped on what she's doing and looked at me with a smile in her face,
She then look back to her stuff, and I thought she just ignored me not until
She took a deep breath and her expression seems like she's reliving the moment and reminiscing the memories from the past...
"I met that person when I was in my highschool life" my grandma started to tell while her face was beaming with a smile, she looks like she's inlove for the first time again,
"At first I never like that person, because of my annoyance everytime that person always stares at me but never spoke at me even once"
"woah so you thought that his weird?" I asked my grandma with curiosity
She just smile and nod her head,
"I found that strange when that person does that to me every time"
"One day I'm so pissed and irritated because of the same stare that person is sending to me so I confronted that person"
"the audacity you have there grandma! Hahaha" I said while laughing,
My grandma just slap my arm and continue her story,
"that day I confronted that person is the unexpected day I never felt that I will first feel the strange feeling inside of me, the love at first hear"
"love at first hear?" I asked confused and trying to hold my laugh because I don't know that my grandma know that lines about love at first sight but for her is love at first hear
"yes haha, the first time I heard that person talk to me, makes me feel I don't know maybe I like that when the person talk"
"I asked that person why she always does that to me, if she has a problem on me-"
"wait grandma, what do you mean by she?, is she a girl?" I asked her
My grandma smile and look at me with her eyes looks like longing
"right my dear, my first love is a girl, and I'm not ashamed to admit it, she gives me the feels that no one can make me, I tried to stop my feelings for her when we got so close, she became my bestfriend and we always go together"
"I never though I would be this madly inlove with her, because of her sweet gestures, we always talks and share our view and thoughts in life, I was so happy with her, in fact more than what I can imagine but I know how this world works, so I tried so hard to hide my feelings, because in the eyes of many its inappropriate and wrong, but for me it's right"
I was amazed listening to my grandma and can't even find a words to speak, so I let her talk and I just listened...
"I don't know why but if people say loving her is a sin, then why did God allow me to be feel this unexplainable feeling of love and happiness"
My grandmother smile but the sadness and sorrow in her eyes can be seen, I held her arm to try to comfort her,
She just look at me and look away
"my feelings became a secret that only myself know it, I tried but it so hard everytime I see her witb another person looking happily, I tried, and the more I tried and years are passing by we separated our ways and still communicate after we graduates, but my feelings still there..until one day, I force myself that I should burried my feelings in the past and move on, that day when I'm ready to let go of that feels is the same day she came out of nowhere to visit me and give me an envelope that she seems like the reason why she's so happy, not until I opened it and it crashes me, it's an wedding invitation and she invites me to became her maid of honor. I tried to masked up my pain with a smile and a congratulatory hug"
I can see my grandma smiling but not the smile that will reach her eyes, I never thought she has this feeling inside she never tell to anyone
"that's it I attended her wedding day and that day it also the day I met your grandfather, he's the best man of her groom"
She ended the story and I smile to her and hugh her, I know that her love for that girl will never dies,
" aww my grandma is such a cry baby" I said while tears are building up in my eyes and tried to lighten up the mood.
We both laugh to each others faces what a not so good and not so bad memories my grandmother had
FICTION! FICTION! FICTION!
Hahaha I just wrote this story one after seeing one of my friends instagram story, they are both girls and still going strong until now.
I supported them because what's wrong with loving the same gender? I mean they didn't do wrong to other people and they just love each other, love is for everyone no matter what age, sexuality, scale etc... If you both really love each other then go for it, the important is you didn't do any wrongs to people.
Images source:
https://www.eehealth.org/blog/2021/03/vaccinated-for-covid-now-what/
Lead image source:
https://inspiredhomecare.com/importance-of-grandparents/
So yeah that's it every one. Have a great weekend I'm still sleepy after spending my friday night watching netflix hehez, hope you enjoy your day, stay hydrated guys
I enjoyed your grandmother's story even though I know you said it was your imagination. Very good.