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Is goodbyes easier than forgiveness?

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4 months ago

In any facet of my life, forgiving scares me the most, it's like risking yourself again for chances that you are no longer sure of, those trust that will never be the same whole again, it's like satisfying a person to feel lighted on what they did, call me the worst person but I think I can't trust and forgive people who once done awful things to me, maybe saying goodbye is much better than forgiving.

I admit that forgiving is one of my weaknesses, I preferred the path that is easier for me, I preferred the comfort I found in goodbyes than giving chances...Yes you can say that you can both forgive while saying goodbye, yet it's not for me...

People says that walking away on something or someone is the hardest thing to do, however it's different for me, if you asked me if goodbye is harder? Then I tell you that it's much easier than forgiving,

Goodbyes are my emergency exit, when things go wrong, and everything seems like falling apart, and it feels like chaos are all over the surrounding, that it's getting overwhelming as days go by, then goodbye is the easiest way for me to do,

Sometimes it's easy to allow ourselves to just runaway from responsibilities, from burdens, from problems that swallowing us alive.

For me saying goodbye is a mark of something that I felt like I need to get over, yet I know that it somehow became my toxic trait, walking out when I can't handle the pressure anymore, walking out without explaining, walking out without even saying things, walking out and never bothered to ask for closures, cause as a human I am, I go on path that I think would be easy for me than risking things I'm not sure of, I tend to shut-off people when insecurities and problems started to envelope my existence and that's when I go for goodbyes...

Maybe I have this pinned idea in my mind that if I say goodbye it means that it's all over, I'm getting over on emotional chaos, I'm putting an end on everything, cutting connections, saying goodbye to anything that causes me chained and doesn't deserve to be given a space in my life.

Cause I believe that walking away for good is much easier than forgiving people because its scares me to forgive because sometimes when I forgive it means that chances are to be followed and I'm not that harsh to take away that from them but it's myself that I'm torturing when I did that, so I just go for the safest and easiest way that I'm comfortable on doing, toxic yet I think it's somehow comforts me.

Saying goodbye for me is like finding myself for another room of my own solace, and taking away the people who doesn't deserved to be part of it is much easier, without wasting time, I know it's difficult but trusting is not on my forte so as much as possible goodbyes are the path that I took.

When I was a pure innocent child back then, I used to believed on second chances until now but the difference is I'm afraid on giving that, it's like putting back again the broken pieces of a figurine just to satisfy someone yet it will never change a thing that it once had cracked and will never be the same, it's hard to fixing it and putting it all back together so instead of fixing it I will just throw it away and leave it all behind because it's much easier, and although at firs, it's painful and difficut to walk away from that, yet times will make it heal and forget and you'll just realized that it's just been part of the past now, and the weights are much lighter than before.

The irony of walking away and saying goodbyes just amazed me, to be honest at first it's can be awful yet the amount of time you walks aways makes you feel light hearted because goodbye for me means a lot and it will last.

Maybe I'm too good on goodbyes... Kidding haha.

That's it for now, maybe one day I could learn to finally forgive that runaways and will accept that sometimes it's okay to forgive and face things not just go walk away without even thinking or wanting on fixing it. Not everything could be solve by a goodbye, be man enough to fix it, have closure on things, it's for the betterment and to be honest it lessen the burden that we weighted on ourselves.

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http://www.borntobloom.today/unforgiveness-big-baggage/

Have a great day my dearest skies, how was your day so far? Weekend really makes me go in a great mood, gosh I will go to my cousin's house and have a bonding with them cause I missed them so much haha even though we just last saw each other last Wednesday night haha, oh by the way enjoy the rest of the day guys, happy weekend, keep safe and always stay hydrated. Enjoy:-)

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I agree sis. Saken once na nasabi mo na it's a goodbye, you're willing to learn to forgive, accept or move on with ease for both parties. Kapag walking away kasi yung isang party may hanging eme eh hahaha

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4 months ago

Opo I can't deny it na meron talagang leftovers na eme pa kasi even though matagal na and you know to yourself na okay na move on ka na pero once na mag cross ulit landas mo or just a glimpse of that person who done such thing to you in the past talagang parang babalik lahat ng emotions.

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4 months ago

Seems like we are the same on this. No wonder ghosting word was invented. Yeah its very hard to forgive, especially when the person has done a huge damage on your life and caused you so much pain.

I've done this too, sometimes when I just can't really run away or Never see them, I mute them, I never talk to them and act as if they Never exist

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4 months ago

That's why ghosting exist oh I love that, yeah sometimes we just intact to our mind that they're just abstranger again and leaving them behind without giving them forgiveness is the easiest way.

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