062022

Struggles are part of life. We cannot live and learn without experiencing struggles in life. The world is round and we can never be always on top.

Hey! I made it from Day 1 to 7 of our 30-day Writing Challenge. It was a roller coaster of emotions and topics to share about. But now, let's see how am I gonna get by the 2nd week of this writing challenge.

Share something that you struggle with

Can I just answer this in one word?

LIFE.

Yes, I do struggle in life. Who doesn't? We just have different approach or take on things that can make us look like we don't struggle in one aspect of life. Some people hide their struggles better than anyone else.

Let me try to list a few things that I struggle with and how do I deal with it.

• Motherhood

I know that first time moms do really struggle in being a mother. I can't deny that even after a year of being a mother, I am still struggling in so many ways.

I know that mothers need to adjust and adapt as days, months or years go by. Anyway, you are honing a new human being into this world to be a good, great or awesome person that you want to. Long process, long struggle but the more that you experience it, the better the person this little human being will be.

How do I deal with my motherhood struggles? I google, research or read other motherhood stories. I relate, I listen, I understand and come up with a plan to be better.

• Confidence

This has been an issue for me that I still can't improve. While I may look or sound that I am confident enough to do things, I still want to grow and do what I love. The only problem is I don't feel confident in doing such thing alone.

I sometimes feel like I need to seek opinions and see if I can make it. I don't even trust myself enough if I can do such things or even do better. This may be one result of not knowing what you like when I was still a kid. I didn't develop enough confidence or talent to do things that I can or want or what will make me happy.

For example, I love playing volleyball. My parents don't like me playing in the varsity team in highschool because it will affect my studies. I wanted to be good in volleyball and I even aspired to be a professional volleyball player because if I became a great or even a good player, I can attend or get scholarships in universities. I didn't develop enough skill or confidence because no one supported me.

Same goes with dancing or joining choir so I can improve my singing skills. I guess my parents always expected us to get high grades so I won't be kicked out of the school.

The only thing that my father supported me is in playing guitar. I initially don't like to try it but I forced myself to learn how to play and eventually loved it. On the other hand, my mother doesn't like it because that's where all of my time goes. She always scold me when she hears me play and say 'kuskos ka na namang ng kuskos ng gitara! Gumawa ka na ba ng assignment?! Tumulong ka dito sa bahay'

So yeah, from that point I've lost confidence in all I do.

These little struggles that I experienced will also serve as a lesson. I will not let Lil B experience the same struggles that I had when I was young. She will have her own struggles eventually and I will make sure that I will be there to support, help, and give her a hand in everything that she wants to do.

Struggles are worth it as long as it's a path for happiness and I!!! THANKYAAAAAW!