Tears!!!

Just when I thought I had a good day laughing and singing in church and all the other activities, it just got ruined. I closed from church and went back to church again for rehearsals and unlike me, some people who went to church were not fortunate enough to return.

I literally cried! To think I don't know anyone who was killed in the massacre but it still got to me so bad that my younger sister had to literally console me. I feel so bland right now and I can't even do anything.

I decided to write cos some how it would be therapeutic for me and help me say all the things I feel like saying. I'm here thinking how the killings and shootings help anybody. Why kill the innocent just because you're trying to pass a message? What kind of cynical message is that? What kind of unsafe world do we now live in?

The church used to be one of the safest places I knew. Growing up, my life was pretty much a triangle, home, church and school and now the fact that people now get killed in church is just traumatizing for me. I really can't say much right now but I know I'll be feeling this way for a long time.

I'm sorry but this article will be short cos even writing now isn't helping. Tears are beginning to form in my eyes cos somewhere out there, someone lost their mother, father, brother, sister, wife, husband, friend, neighbor, enemy and even children.

The way those people died today, I wouldn't even wish for my enemies to die like that. I can't accept this at all, not now, not ever!

It's better I stop writing now cos my head is in the place of revenge and you can't blame me cos that what pain can cause, especially when the dead are innocent.

May their souls rest in peace!

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Author's Epilogue

I'm just here, bland and not knowing what to do with the rest of my day cos sleep will be far from me, that I'm sure of.

I'll just stare at my ceiling asking God alot of questions till sleep finally comes or not. Hopefully, he'll answer.

Thanks for reading ..

Mhizutty the voice of truth 🎵🎶🎵