I was just infatuated thinking I was in love...

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Why does she act this way?. I asked myself several times. I don't know why. Every time I am always trying to make her smile, I become a piece of shit. I don't know what is wrong. I gave it my all. Thinking she would reciprocate. But nay! Maybe when I am reborn again with her in a new world.

Does love truly fade?.

I thought I was in love but I realized I was just in a competition. I already knew how hard it kicks and touches every part of the veins when one gets hurt by love. I would have wished I would never fall in love again. But what about the day my heart began to draw closer to another heart. I don't know what to call that. Lust or love?.

I would give my all, my time, my attention, my ideas, and even my priority. I knew I already planted a seed in my heart but how would it get to grow out and fruit something everyone would want to glance at.

I just hope she could see through my heart and realize it doesn't have to come in a haste but it has to be something gradual. I hope she could just understand.

Lost or love.

I remember how I got played by a girl years back giving her much of my attention showing her how much I appreciate her. Giving her my all even to the extent that I would say I blindly fell in what I thought was love but just mere infatuations.

I realized I had attached myself so much to her that I am almost like a parasite to her. Maybe it's my world and I just can't do without her. I thought this should be a symbiotic relationship and not parasitic. I became a predator and fed on my prey. I moved on without taking a look back.

It's been such a long time. But why now?. Why her?. I don't know.

She was just the perfect type not until a time when everything began to change. When things get to turn around. The person I always spend hours with began to deteriorate to minutes. But still, I would always give my full attention. For almost all my words she had to smile but all I say now just seems like trash.

The love triangle

She does everything I ask of her and even makes amendments to my corrections. She calls me boss and also remains her respective self. But I never see the essence of all these If someone else could make her smile.

Maybe I was just playing along being my loyal self. I thought the love should keep revolving like a circle ⭕ but it seems it already went the other way round in a triangular 🔺 pattern. I give my attention but someone else is having her attention. I give my time, but she spends most of her time with someone else. I gave my feelings, but she has feelings for someone else. I tried making her smile but she gave those smiles to someone else.

I thought to myself, why have I shown her all my heart?. It wouldn't have hurt this much if I didn’t. I sometimes think I am just jealous but how can I help myself?. I don't know what is wrong with me but I am just down for now. Everything seems to have dated back to the past.

Maybe next time I wouldn't have to express all my heart and also take my time to play the game so as not to be loose again. I know it would take time to heal, but I am sure this would be the last.

A pure man's heart trying to recover from infatuation 🤣.

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11:26 pm. Thursday 10th March 2022.

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I love your article. It brings back some memories of my youth when I myself also mistook infatuation to love and broke my heart several times. It hurts back then, but that does not stop me from loving. After all, to love and be loved is still the best feeling in the world.

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That's normal. in life there's always someone who we thought would be true and also share the same feelings we have, but they're just gonna pass on us. Surely you learn not to do your best thing and give your all, because somewhere someday, someone's gonna come along who deserves all of you and your feelings will be reciprocated.

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2 years ago

True talk and I really appreciate your words. That’s just the basics of life

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When you love someone deeply, you will experience getting hurt too and that is normal for me. You'll get over that pain, McYusuf.

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Thanks 🙏 my mentor. Your words are always like an inspiration to do more.

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