I just want to remove my Head

It's the last day of March and tomorrow we entering another month which is April. How do you feel that you still able to overcome this month and you are still kicking for another chances and opportunities. I hope that no matter what struggles we've encountered in life, we are still grateful that God allows us to witnessed the beauty of life. Isn't it hard yet is it also fulfilling to be alive right? So keep moving until your dreams is already in your hands.

Since I'm not okay today, I mean that my head is still aching right now. I don't know what happened but one thing is for sure , I just want to remove my head because it's so painful. Honestly, I bang my head against the wall hoping that it can lesses the pain, but nothing happens haha. Maybe it's another migraine. Lately, I often experiencing it. I know that I'm at fault also because somehow, I didn't take care myself. I also lack on sleep, last night I only have 3 hours of sleep and even I'm lack in sleep, I still choose to take a bath so early. I'm not into it because my Mom didn't allows me to take a bath when I'm lack at sleep but what can I do, everyday na akong puyat lol. I also forget to eat breakfast because I immediately attend on my classes. Earlier, I can still bare the pain but it seems that my surroundings spinning around. Despite on this, I still push myself to make some essays for my midterms exam. I should be productive somehow since it is 20 essays and it is handwritten so I need to start even a little.

But when afternoon comes, I can't endure the pain anymore. So after I eat my lunch, I decided to take a nap. I thought that after this power nap, I will be okay but unfortunately my head still aching and it becomes worst. I hate this feeling when only one side of your head is painful and other part feel numb. I once again bang my head on the wall. My Auntie give me some medicine to intake and also ointment to ease the pain. After I applied, I suddenly feel that there is something in my tummy so I immediately go to comfort to vomit. I just want to lay on my bed so that I can't feel any dizziness. My Auntie jokingly said " Kakaselpon mo yan" which is somehow true because most of the time, I'm stuck on the screen of my laptop and cellphone especially when I have a class or an activities that need to pass through online. So basically, I don't have a choice but to look at the screen. But you know what, I'm just a naughty kid haha. Even my head is still in pain,I'm here looking at the screen while writing an article here haha.

Maybe this headache is also because I'm too stress lately. You know, I already shared to you how frustrated I am in my acads especially in our Thesis. Until now, our prof is not on the mood so I insist not to pass our paper or else, she will put an "X" again without reading it. Our midterms exam is also in the corner. Next week will be our exam and one of our prof also told us that still have class on Holy Week except on Good Friday. Can I still called it break even it just a day ? haha. Plus the hot weather that added to the pain that I felt. I wished that rian will visit us at least once.

But I'm a little bit sad because I'm alone on the house because they went to my Auntie's house for the Despedida Party of my cousin. Her one month vacation is already over and she will go back to Dubai tomorrow. I just chatted her that I can't there and to wish her a safe trip. But I'm happy for her because yesterday, she also able to buy a franchise of a pizza parlor. Her sister is the one who will manage the business. She gradually achieve her dreams. For sure the whole house will turn into a quiet place again especially that after 2 months, she will also migrate her two sons there. She already find a school for them. And the most shocking is when my older sister told me that she have also a plan to work there in Dubai. So most of the people here leaves and will going to live there. But if they think that is is the better opportunity for them, si definitely I will support them specially my sister because I know somehow that she really needs to start over. I know that she is still heartbroken at the moment so maybe there, she will be at peace at least.

I will end my article here because even I want to, my mind don't cooperate with me. Maybe I will take a rest earlier than my usual sleep time. I hope that tomorrow my head will be okay. I need to regain energy because I'm also drained right now. So take care always dreamers and take a rest too.

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