Feels like putting it into the pen, maybe I'll feel better. can you listen to the silent scream? it is so loud and it echoes again and again in my trance. Behind the bright light that shines, lies a dark tunnel that goes after a mile. Behind the grin on my face, lies a sad face covered with a mask.
wish the silent scream in my mind could be heard from afar but even nearer, it could not be felt. I said I'm fine but my thought could not be heard. It's just a silent scream that carries no words, a feeling of sadness that comes in its herds.
They told me I'll be fine, they told me that I'm strong enough to face the battle. They told me it will all be good if I should hold on and bear the Storm weather. They said all I need is to keep fighting but they seem to forget that night comes in after each day and none could understand the dreadful hour. I acted and play along but slowly, this crushing darkness breaks my heart.
How can I drill, how can I heal and how can I explain? I found myself walking around in a suffocating black mist. I can't explain how it feels but sealed my voice to cover my silent screams. Happiness seems to drip like water between my fingers, then it disappeared into the sand.
sometimes it is hard to get off the bad scenario that filled up my messy head. can't even find the effort to get out of my silly stale bed, not even the effort to smile, even when I attempt, a smile doesn't last long. I was surrounded by the world but I feel lonely, yet pretended that I am the happiest in the world.
Hiding the pain, hiding the tears that drop like rain, saying I'm fine while the ache in my soul slashes at my guts but you'll never know how it feels. The constant pain isn't real in the light of the day but when darkness comes, slowly it pulls me down with its all-consuming Powers. Yeah, sure I'm gonna play, laugh, and sing some songs, but I could still feel the injury that keeps lurking in my heart.
How long shall it be? finding some courage to light up the fire inside my heart. I'm gonna walk along the green pasture to feel nature and there I shall feel the crips sea breeze, and on the meadow shall I lay to listen to the bees and to listen to the sweet symphonies of the birds. Glaring at the stars and dance to every sunset with an enchanted smile inside my heart.
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