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@Marinov

It isn't easy and it will never be

Hello, everyone! How are you doing these days? I apologize for not being able to catch up. Motherhood has taken my time and I admit I am still in the process of becoming a responsible mother. I never thought it would come this year and honestly, I am not yet prepared. But what can I do? My baby is already here. She's the most precious gift I receive this year. I can't take my eyes off her. She's my favorite view. Some of you here already knew what my baby has been through after I gave birth to her. She had an infection and had been through a lot of medications for 10 days. She refused feeding which is one of the effects of the infection making her weak and unable to cry I mean she seemed like she has lost her emotions. Because of these, doctors resort to putting tube/hose from her mouth to his stomach so she can still have milk in her body. She also received a lot of injections which pained me the most. The nurses and doctors found it difficult for them to inject the needle since her nerves are so tiny. And if they will be successful, after many hours, the dextrose has to be removed again because the needle doesn't align within the nerve causing my baby's foot to swell. As a result, they need to find another visible nerve again on the other foot. That scene was so painful to me. I cannot imagine what my baby felt that time. There are older peeps who are still afraid of needles so how much more a new born child? I don't want to go back to those painful memories what my baby has gone through. In fact, I want to forget those. I even deleted the pictures of her being ill and told my sisters too to just save the ones with happy memories. My baby is a warrior. She's a hero of her own. She's the the bravest human I ever known. She's just 3 days old when she experienced pain from needles and everything that's needed in medication. She fought for her life though I know it's really hard for her. When I saw her being placed in a separate bed under the lights (I don't know how they call them but the colors were blue and yellow), I longed to be with her and be at my side. I cannot sleep seeing my child away from me. But as I said, she's a warrior. I should call her, Athena I guess. Three days after, the doctor told us that she will be taking away those lights and let my baby sleep beside me. I was so happy because it also means that my baby is doing well. She's also able to get milk from me since she doesn't refuse feeding anymore. We were at home five 5 days now and I can say that I don't have enough sleep since my baby likes to wake up at night and sleeps at daytime. Oh my! I had a lot of troubles from getting her from bed and carrying her the right way. I cannot even make her burp after breastfeeding. Still, I got no choice so I have to learn everything. Taking care of my baby consumes all my time but I believe I can adjust to this one day. I salute all moms out there because I already knew the struggle they've been through. It isn't easy and it will never be. Thank you everyone for supporting me during those times that I need your help. Your upvotes/tips helped a lot in paying the hospital bills. I will upload a photo of it in the next article. You guys really had a big heart though some of you here don't know me personally. 🥺 Thank you, mem @Zhyne06 for everything and for your initiative to help. I promise I will return the favor soon if things will run smoothly here. Sa ngayon, di muna ako makakapagread.cash ng todo kasi nakakabinat daw gumamit ng phone? Is it true? Hmm. Well, I just need to follow oldies since they know better. And as what they said, "Been there, done that." Maraming salamat ulit, read.cash family. I will try to keep up and renew some sponsorships. I have a lot of things to catch up. Thank you also to my sponsors for the sponsorship renewal. `P.S. Pasensya na sa magulong article na to. I'm just typing this quickly while my baby is asleep.`

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