And I missed my last Valentine's

Happy Valentine's y'all! How did you spent your Valentine's yesterday? Sorry I wasn't able to greet you because I was busy yesterday. It's one of my friends' birthday and we had a dinner celebration at a restaurant. It's our yearly bond to spend time together during Valentine's day especially it's one of my friends' birthday. It's a double celebration. I can still remember last 2021 when we celebrate Valentine's too at my friend's house. Since it's his 21'st birthday, he had a big celebration. There are a lot of food and drinks too!

I was also a month pregnant that time but I did not knew. I drank a lot that time and even smoked too. We also had a night swimming while it rained so hard. In short, I was so careless and clueless. Thank God that my daughter, Clea, was not affected by my vices before. I also stopped everything that's bad to my health when I already found out I was pregnant. I learned from this experience to not enjoy too much during Valentine's because you might get sad after. Lol.

For this year's Valentine's, I am confused if I am happy or sad. Happy because I spent my Valentine's with my dearest friends and with my boyfriend as well but kinda sad because I miss my previous experiences. One of the thing I miss is being given a bouquet of flowers. There's only one man who gave me flowers and that's my recent ex, Steve. At first, I don't like receiving gifts from a boyfriend. I find it too corny. I also feel ashame if some people will see me carrying flowers. In short, I don't like a man to be sweet towards me but Steve changed my perspective. He made me feel what it feels to be given the best of the world. He never failed to give me flowers and other sweet stuffs may it be during special occasions or just an ordinary day. He let me experience what it feels to be taken care of for I was always the one who cares. That's why I missed him this Valentine's. Oh! He's not only good in surprises but he is also a man of words, a responsible and a husband material.

My last Valentine's with Steve was special even though he found out I was cheating. I thought he was changed but he didn't. In fact, the day after he caught me which is Valentine's day, he fetched me in my workplace and we had lunch together. He also gave me flowers and a bar of chocolate. He told me that I should not talk about other things that day because he doesn't want that day to be ruined. He also forgave me there and then even if he didn't heard me saying sorry. During that day, he's always smiling like I didn't do anything bad. He treated me nicely like just like the usual but behind his smiling eyes, I saw a disappointed man. I was so insensitive that time and I had taken the advantage of him loving me so much that I kept on making mistakes. Honestly, after our break-up, I missed him and that's only the time that I realized that I love him. I can say that Steve is my greatest love. Don't get me wrong. I just based it on what they said. They said we have different types of love - puppy love, first love, greatest love and true love.

Nah! Sorry for reminiscing the past. Lol. I just remembered because I saw a lot of sweet Facebook posts last night. I am not envy about it though, I just missed the feeling. Well, my boyfriend now, I guess he doesn't have any sweetness in his body and I think it's only because I told him I don't like receiving gifts. He didn't greet me too but it's okay. I have my perfect Valentine's anyway and that's my daughter, Clea and Valentine's is not only for lovers but for family too.

Happy Valentine's again!

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