Hello to all. Happy Friday! Today is July 30,2021. I take the challenge of @whitney123 on her article about International Friendship Day even, I don't have real friends. hehehe. You know, before, When I was in Highschool. I have many friends. But, NOT literally the real meaning of friends. They want me to be their friends because, they need me for academics. I can't say that I'm a smart person. But, I can sense that they take advantage to me because of having a nice grades. Even, I sense it. I just say to myself that. "It's okay, because soon, when the right time will come. I will realized that its okay to be alone and know my worth".
Before, It's okay to me to be part of them. Even I'm not fitted in the circle of friends they have. I always fit in to others, because, I want to feel having a friends. Having a person to talk to. I do that, because, I don't want to feel alone in the school. If I don't fit 'n to them and do what they want. I will always left behind, walk alone and eat alone. I tried my best to socialize. But, I feel bad to myself of being lowkey person I am. During our moving up, they don't even let me join to their celebration, a year end celebration or farewell after quarantine. But, its okay. I just try my best to celebrate it with my family.
When, I enter in Senior High School. I feel bad seeing their mydays and posts in facebook. Having fun , dance together and bond together. To be honest, I feel jealous to them, because, this year many of us turned 18 years old. But, they don't even invite me to their birthday celebrations. For 4 years of being a classmates with them. I feel happy those old days that even I tried my best to fit'n. They will treat me as their friends even just a plastic one. Hehe. But, today they don't even remember me. They always chat me if they need me. They will always remember me if they need something to me. HAHAHA.
My parents saw me crying last night. Because, I do tell to them that. No one even remember me after what I did to them before, in order to help them in their academics. I just realize that even, You tried your best to do good things to them , to be kind and being helpful. But, if they don't like you or pass the vibes they wanted. You will always failed to fit in the group. My mom and dad told me that, "Hon, you don't need a friends. You don't need a circle of friends. You have us, you need to focus on your career. Friends can ruin you. Trust me Hon. I hope you understand what we wanted to convey".
When I enter in Grade 11. Still, I don't have friends. Because, my classmates are very competitive. And I'm afraid also that they will take advantage to me. Hahaha. I have trust issues now. That time also, I received messages from my previous classmates that they need my help to make them understand what the meaning of their activities. But, you know. I don't replied to them. I just ignore them. The way they ignored me. I don't want to tolerate them to depend to others. I don't want also to be taken for granted by a plastic friends and classmates. I think, those tough olds thays makes me realize that, It's okay to be alone as I grew up.
But, I'm so thankful to them. That even, they do that to me. Even I don't have real friends. It serves an inspiration to me to do my own best. To stand by myself. To be alone without a friends to talk to. So, now, I realized that when the people don't want me because, I'm so kind and innocent. Then, I will be alone. For 2 years of being alone by myself . I feel happy staying at home. Watching movies alone. And mind my own business.
If there is someone that you feel that they take advantage you of being so kind and helpful. Please, avoid them. I tell to you that "Being Alone, makes us realize how worthy we are" .
To all my friends here in read.cash. Even this is my fourth day here. I feel not alone anymore. Because, you welcomed me here. I feel happy to write and make friends in this platform. Thank you so much . I will always love you and cherish each one of you. God Bless Us All.
But, as a teenager. To be honest, I wish to have a good real friends and experience a sort of happiness in life. Hehe. That feeling that they will accept me even what status my life now. Hehe
Thank you all for reading this article. I just feel emotionally right now. I'm so Sorry. hehe.
HAPPY INTERNATIONAL DAY my dear friends here. Continue doing good and be the light into someones darkness. I love you!
I understand how much more difficult it is for young people, especially teenagers, to find real friends nowadays, even pre-pandemic. I think it is because of the prevalence of social media where you can meet and get to know people virtually, instead of actually doing this face-to-face.
Admit it or not, there is an invisible screen that the Internet affords us, so we can mask and double mask ourselves while relating to people this way - even via videos. It doesn't help that many people on social media post anything and EVERYTHING about their lives, so this somehow elicits envy in others.
It still is best to get to know someone by actually spending quality time with them because you will get a lot of insight about a person that way. And hopefully, you find life-long friends, even if they are just a handful.