I needed to save for my delivery this coming January

Saving is helpful way and our trusted fund when it comes to money or financial problems, and the more we save the less problem. Puting money on your banks account or by simply address them with your piggy banks.

I am now in the second trimester of my pregnancy, and I am having this advance thinking about my delivery either it will be normal or not, but I hope I will deliver my baby normally. And even though having the thought of normal delivery, I do need to save for the hospital payment and for my medication after giving birth, and to my baby's needs like diapers and milk.

So while staying here in my grandmother's house, I said this to myself that I will save money. Days goes by, I never thought that saving could be so hard to me because I don't have anyone to give me income or extra money, so whenever I have a little amount of money which is I got from grinding, I bought my needs like milk and fruits, and I never thought that even my needs would be affected.

I've been experiencing headache lately, because I am controlling my way of eating. Before I drink milk in the morning but now, I don't. Before I ate a lot of fruits but now I don't because I am saving. The least that I could do is to save money because If I don't, who else would help me in the future?

My grandma is getting old, do I have to depend on her when her money is not even enough for her medicines? Life for me now is like a hard level game. Been trying and using so many lives to finish this level.

They said I should never get hungry, yet now here I am struggling even more of it, I even lose my strength because I don't have energy anymore, all I have is headache and talking stomach. Being pregnant is not easy, you have so many cravings and wants, and when you don't get them? You will suffer in the end, and I think this is me now, suffering from pain and due to empty stomach.

I am deeply sorry to my innocent baby because even she, she experience of being hungry while she was still here inside of my stomach. I ate three times a day, but only a little because my grandmother is murmuring every day and night because she said she don't have enough money to sustain me and I get bother with that, I feel like i am now a burden to her, so in order for her to save also, I need to control myself like control my rice eating.

Whenever I feel hungry, I forced myself to go to sleep and whenever I had headache I just let it be. I never thought in the beginning that it could be this hard for me to survive, but I needed to for my baby.

Last night I smelled the very yummy food that my neighbor made for their dinner, I just simply admire the taste of their food while me taking my bread dinner and went to bed. Just miss to eat some fresh meat and fish, because I never had them. The only three choices of food I have is sardines, egg and noodles, somehow these three made me happy, because whenever I feed myself I feel happy because I know my baby from the inside is also eating.

My life now as a pregnant woman is the hardest, but I promise to myself that I will never give up. I will work and be more active here so this could help me saving.