I have no savings. I have no investment. Yet I have lots of things in my mind which I wanted to fulfill for my family. I have a lot things which I wanted to buy. I want to travel to many places. I have an ambition and goal which seems difficult to reach at the moment.
I am thinking of going abroad in order to provide my family needs. I sustain my youngest brother's studies. I have a huge debt to my family for buying my new laptop. Our house is not as safe as before. Since it's almost 18 years, it needs a major renovation. We live in a squatters area where we can be evicted any time.
To tell you honestly, I was unable to save a single penny from my two previous jobs. It's impossible for me to save up. My first job was unsustainable. Little amount for giving your full time and effort and receiving nothing in return. Honestly, I don't think that a person should thank his or her employer for receiving your salary since, you worked for it. It's not as though you asked for it.
When I worked at a BPO company, I started treating my family to a nice meal because those are the things which I was unable to do in my first job. You know that kind of satisfaction seeing them happy for the meal I bought for them. I also bought a few clothes for myself. Whenever there are family occasions, I don't care about the amount of money I spend as long as they are happy and full.
My family thought that I was earning too much when in fact I'm not. I just wanted to make you for the time that I was unable to extend help for our family needs. I just wanted to spoil them with food and materials things that my hard earned money can buy.
As I get older, I come to see the reality of life even more. It's impossible to get rich and provide for my family's needs with the very little salary I have. It's impossible to save up for the things that I wanted to buy and have. It's impossible to be in control of everything that I have around me and that's what frustrates me even more.
I'm 24 and I have nothing. I just started working in my third job and I'm starting to think of what to do next in order to achieve my dreams and goals in life. Nothing is more frustrating than knowing that there are a lot of things to be accomplished and there is only a very little things that I can do. I'm also not the type to just simply put up with everything. I want everything to be organized and in perfect shape as there is supposed to be a specific plan and time frame about everything.
As a young adult, I can say that I haven't lived my life to the fullest yet. I still have a lot of things which I wanted to do in life and I've been thinking of going abroad in order to achieve it. I see none for those dreams and goals of mine if I just stay here. I needed to do something more and something extra.
I've been thinking of how I can earn more so I'm looking for a part time job so I'll have two sources of income. I just needed to pay up all my pending debts and buy a brand new laptop for my youngest brother. Aside fromm that, I also needed to buy a few things for my family and give an allowance to my mom. She is the only one that I have now as my father is in heaven for almost 40 days now.
One day, I'll go back to this day and see that all my dreams and goals in life has been fulfilled.
Love_16
November 1, 2021
Monday
I feel you. You are not alone. Be strong and continue to hope. We will have our own breakthrough, just believe in yourself and in God.