Some random thoughts.

Hello everyone! It's almost two days after Valentine's day and I had read a lot of articles about how everyone spent the day. As I scroll posts on my Facebook timeline I noticed seemed everyone had a simple celebration together with their loved ones.
Well for those who chose to be with their lover and have "loving-loving" hope they got the best performance. At least they could say it was worth it in case they got scammed. Hehe kidding aside.

Speaking of posts on Facebook, I came across my Ex - boyfriend status update. We were together for 4years and he was my bestfriend before we chose to take our relationship into the next level. Everyone was actually expecting us to end up getting married but then something happened and we broke up. Back to his FB post, here it is.

He was pertaining to his wife. I just can't help but to ask myself. As far I could remember he also said those words to me . So Tsskk! Don't get me wrong I am not bitter, just wondering. Wondering If I did not show him the meaning of love back then? Or maybe he already forgot all the words he said every time he expressed his love for me. Those sweet words , promises, unending " I love you's" . And yet now he says he didn't know the definition of love back then? So what we have back then?🤔🤔hahaha

Well maybe some of you had read the reason why we broke up before. Our break up was actually unexpected. No one thought, actually it never also crossed my mind too. I thought he was THE ONE as I already see my future with him. That's the sad reality of life. Sometimes being in a relationship with someone for years doesn't mean you end up together.

You may be wondering why I saw his posts on Facebook. He reconciled with me a year ago. He said he wants to have a peace of mind before he get married. He added that it was here girlfriend who persuade him to contact and talk with me. As he said he has been talking with her about me. Oh, hope just the good one😂😂.

After blocking me on FB for almost 7 years, yes he was the one who blocked me after what he did. I was just surprised one afternoon when I received a message request from on my messenger. Since I am no longer bitter at that time, hehehe I replied in his message. He did ask for an apology for what happened before and explained his side. He swears there was no third party that time but I don't believe him. I mean , can a man suddenly become cold if there is no other woman? I don't think so.

He actually did try to ask for a second chance before after we broke up. He said he realized he love me and can't let me go. He even went to may parents to ask for a help.

Did I give him a chance? NO, I did not. It is because he did not admit his mistakes and just put all the blame on me. He asked why I decided to throw away our four years of relationship all of a sudden. Maybe he got amnesia and forgot that it was him who did it first ,not me. That is when he blocked me on FB.

His second attempt for a second chance was after 2 years we broke up. He contacted me via text messages. He got my cellphone number from my sister. My family likes him so much and they are expecting us to be back into each other's arms. Cliche, not all have second chances.

If you're gonna ask me why I did not give him a chance? Well I don't want to be in a relationship with someone who broke my trust. I am the type of person who was too good in history. I would always remember what he did and we will just end up having an argument for sure. Besides, my heart was full of hatred at that time. I had thought I wanted to give him a dose of his own medicine. I want him to feel what I felt. Such an immature of me.

Now did I regret it?

No I did not, I have moved on years ago and accepted the fact that we are not destined to each other. Pinagtagpo lng, pero hindi tinadhana . Our love was not that strong to fight whatever challenges that may come in our way. Him for being unable to stay after a year of being in a long distance relationship and me for unable to forgive him. Maybe if we really love each other we understand our mistakes. Not pointing nor emphasizing about it.

I am happy for him as he found the love of his life and someone he is gonna spend life with just like mine. If there is one thing I regret, it's our friendship. Indeed friends can be lovers but lovers can't be friends. Awkward, lol!

So if ever you're in love with your bestfriend, better not take your relationship to the next level if you are not sure you're gonna end up together. Cause the moment you lose your lover, you're gonna lose your bestfriend too.