Do we become EMOTIONAL as we age?

EMOTION- everyone has right? Some might me good in concealing yet deep inside I know they still felt different types of emotions. It is something to do with our feelings . It is natural to feel this as we are humans not robots.

When we are still kids , (what I am trying to state is based only on my observations) most of us change emotions fast. Like this moment we are sulking maybe because of the small things we wanted but not granted by our parents. The next few minutes we already forgot it as we were already enjoying something that caught our attention. Not only that, sadness and heartaches don't stay longer. Well a pack of chocolate was enough to brighten the day. I? Since I am just a low key , a pack of pandesiosa bread is okay.

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So what I am trying to say is, emotions were not complicated when you are a kid. We can be bribed easily. Yet as we grow up let's say as we age things become different. Material things sometimes were not even enough to make us happy. It could but only for a moment. Why say these? Simply because I experienced those.

For example I was raised in a family that is not vocal when it comes to expressing love. My siblings and I never say " I love you" with each other but of course we do. We are not the type who always maintained communications. Like we would chat each other only if we need something. However this past few years, I was already in my mid - twenties. I had noticed that there are times I am sulking. It is just because no one in the family remembered to chat with me to ask how I am. Yes, they will if they need something. Funny right? Why did I suddenly become emotional?

I remember during the first year of the pandemic my mind was really in a turmoil. I envy my sisters as they are all together while I was stack alone here in the city. I felt ALONE. They did not even ask how I am doing here.

So when the mall opened after a month I went shopping, haha. Yes I am indeed happy while doing some shopping. I bought what I like. However when I lay down on my bed at the end of the day, the loneliness was there. Hayyy, am I getting OLD?

Not only this happened to me, but I had observed this to my parents. They become so emotional and sensitive since they reached their senior age.
I remember my Mother called one time, upon picking the phone, I told her " Nay wala pa ako sahod " ( Nay, it's not yet my payday).

Would you believe that my Mother was hurt because of that. I mean, I used to joke with her before like that. That was okay. It was never an issue. Yet that time, she told me sister " So ganon? kasi hindi na ako nagtitinda. Hindi na ako kumikita ng pera. Pabigat na lng ako at wala kwenta?" ( So because I no longer sell, I am not earning money, I am useless now?) She even cried because of it.
Hey, I was just JOKING here.

Since then, I have become too careful with my words. Afraid that I might hurt her again.

My Father? Oh, it was the worst. He was so emotional compared to my Mother. Just recently I was so worried. Around 10PM when my sister called in our GC on messenger. I was supposed not to answer as it was my sleeping time but she chatted that it was an emergency.

That is only to found out that my Father was drunk and he supposed to commit suicide. He was already holding a gun when he called my sister. And told her he wanted die.

The reason? He felt so neglected. He told my sister that we never called to talk to him. I mean how we can talk to him when every time we called he is not home. He is with his friends (drinking buddies). Not only that, he was so mad that my Mom kept on nagging him. Don't get my Mom wrong. There are too many reasons why she is nagging him.

So he felt that since he is useless, it is better to die.

And we spent hours, talking to him via video call. I almost booked a ticket to home. Until now, he is like that. He was so pasaway ( since he is a drunkard). Yet you can't tell or advise him or that as he takes it negatively. He would end up sometimes, just sleeping in his room and would refuse to eat.

Hay, indeed having an old parents was a big challenge because they are so EMOTIONAL.

Right?

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04/02/2022

04:36PM Manila Philippines.