Date: June 10, 2022 (Friday)

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Here I am again in the comfort of my bed, looking at the ceiling, wondering what I am going to write today anew.

I feel sleepy and tired. I want to sleep and rest. I want to recharge my mind and body for me open my eyes tomorrow with so much glee. But I can't help but have these thoughts wandering in my mind again.

Despite the feeling that I have inside, I would still want to craft these words for you. Just so you know, I miss this platform a lot. I don't know why, but I have that so near, yet so far feeling these days. Am I the only one feeling this?

Nevertheless, earlier, I had a great time exchanging thoughts with my workmate. We were talking about our life and how we end up this way. We have so much plan in life. We wanted to help our families, too. But destiny is not truly good for us. Our thoughts have led to journeying to another path. I got interested to the plan though, but I don't want to stay away from our place. I love to be here and I will always stay here even if it means I will not be able to embrace the opportunity given. If it's for me, it's really for me. I'll just have to offer everything to Him and I know He's there willing to guide me to the right path.

So much for that, I have a lot of thoughts that I want to express in some way. These are the "To be Honest" thoughts that I am carrying inside that I want to unload.

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To Be Honest...

I want to gain the confidence once again.

I'm not really that bad in terms of having self-confidence, but lately I have noticed that I keep on waving some opportunities because of the lack of confidence. I even feel like I want to turn back time and embrace the opportunity instead. If only.

I want to stop the hate around.

It's not really that applicable to me, but in our workplace there are these people whp are having conflict. With that, I just want to stop the hate around because it's suffocating to think knowing that the way they handle the conflict is in an immature way.

I want to be more disciplined.

I have been so vocal that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). Then earlier, I saw someone from noise.cash posting that she's finally PCOS-free. Given that, I asked her how did she do it, then she said that she did low carb diet. Perhaps I should control my food intake starting now and be more disciplined.

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Closing Thoughts

There are so many things wandering in my mind lately. Like how can I sort them out in a snap? If only I have the sorcery to do it.

Anyway, I will make it up to you soon my dearest friends. Please excuse me lately for feeling like this and for being inactive. As much as I wanted to get back to my usual state, I need to iron-out things in my life such as having more rest in order not to feel so tired at the end of the day.

How about you? What are your "to be honest" thoughts?

Disclaimer: The thoughts expressed are personal and solely belong to thr writer.