Yesterday I found an interesting article written by our fellow writer meitanteikudo. He did a unique style of freestyling that took my attention and excite me if I can do it too. And so here I am gonna challenge my ability to do as great as he does. Time check first 10:46 am in my country and I'm hungry.
Hungry is the state of ourselves displaying or feeling of need of food. It mostly happen when we skip a meal or used all of our energy because of some serious activities that needed to be done. But hungriness is not all about food. It can also be about eagerness to do something, the craveness to achieve a certain goal.
Goal, right now my goal is to finish this article and I'm just starting. It's the 3rd paragraph and I must add more to have a 4 to 5 minutes reading time that will going to excite and make my readers enjoy my work. I must done something worth reading of your time. And not just an so so article that was made just to achieve a daily quota. For today my goal is to be as productive as yesterday and I'm going to start my skincare routine because I wanted to have a lighter skin. How about you what are your goals in life?
Life? Am I actually alive? As far as I know life is the existence of human or animals in this environment. And so I question myself, am I alive? I feel like I really don't exist in this environment of mine. I do interact, they sometimes notice me. But if I kinda distance myself and be silent for a little bit I feel like they don't notice my existence after that. And so from overthinking it leads me to loneliness.
Loneliness is more painful than being alone. I used be alone, there are time that I prefer to be alone like isolating myself. You know? Staying in my room for whole day it's just me and my inner peace. It actually put me at peace for time being than being in a lot of crowds who's not actually interested on me. But then that inner peace will turn into a community that hit by a tornado. It will be messed up when I start overthinking that if am I enough?
Enough with this sadness, I don't wanna be sad anymore from this tantrum and rant and whatsoever it is. We shouldn't care if we are enough from someone, or if they're satisfied on us. Stay for those who stay. Bad laugh with those who laugh with me. Because I know from myself (well most of the time) that I am enough and I don't need to please other just to like me.
Me, your lazy writer the lazysnail. Many people says that I am not lazy. I also think I'm not, but I feel like I am. But from my perspective, when I'm sitting or laying in bed for an hour or two, I feel like I'm becoming a lazy one. Have you ever whished or dreamed to become a potato? Because I do. I just wanna be a potato, burying myself in the earth and do nothing at all just chilling in there. But when I do nothing, this mind of mine, starts overthinking I even went to other planet, universe, in past and in future.
Future is the time where I want to be, actually we're heading to it right now. But if ever I could time travel. Leaping to the future or going back to the past, I prefer to be in future, for I want to know about who I will be 20-30 years from now. I won't gonna change anything just me making myself prepared for everything.
Everything I said, are all about my feelings right now. As you can see it's all about me and my emotion. I just want to express from my inside by writing this freewriting Article because I can't do it verbally for I know I'm myself I have low communication and interaction skills when verbally face to face. This read.cash is my freedom, where I can write anything without getting bash, or receiving negative feedback.
Closing Thoughts
Sorry for this nonsense Article time chec check 12:23 I ate lunch earlier so I stopped for a time being. I think I'm improving my writing skills and also my speed time in writing because before it always took me 2-3 hours just to think and to published an article. This freewriting style I saw from meitanteikudo is actually interesting because we should start from the end of the words of each paragraph and that's actually awesome.
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Aabangan ko yung skincare reveal mo Snail hehe. Ako yung goal ko lang talaga ay maayos yung buhay namin at gawing proud yung parents sa akin. Anyhow, I love how you express your thoughts through free writing.