I was once bullied
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The best you can do to yourself in this life is to accept who you are, whether slim or chubby, fair or dark, tall or short, handsome/beautiful or ugly. Rating down yourself will bring low self esteem. Comparising yourself with others will definitely bring you down.
I remember when I was in high school, I suffered a lot of bully because I'm slim and not only that but coupled with a very fair skin. You know that kind of skin, being the only difference in the midst of black people. I can't just hide even in the midst of lectures in school because the teacher always point at me to answer questions but thank God I wasn't dull to that aspect. My colleagues were fond of referring me to an Albino and it used to pain me. To the extent I selected only few friends to flow with. My slim nature also gave me a lot of awkward comparison and looks especially when we were to engage in physical labor that demands exertion of strength. They always say I'm not capable of something like that because I'm slim and I'd break when I try. But I always surprise them that slim nature is not a fact to conclude on the strength of the person.
There was a PRINCIPAL(head of school) they brought to our school that time, he was suffering from psych and does all manners of display. He has my kinda colour but his own is the Albino type, so they used to refer to me as is son just to make fun of me. Do you understand the pain? They were referring me to a madman as a father just because we have a look a like colour. That I couldn't hold so I fight and hate anyone that calls me that.
I love you❤️And the funny thing is that, if people see you reacting to what you are supposed to laugh over, they increase the intensity. So the more I fight and hate it, the more they do it. I got tired and accepted the bully with the whole of me.
Girls that time don't find me attractive except the ones that know me to the book section because I always come out outstanding. So I didn't even bothered to talk of having a girlfriend then. Low self-esteem was written all over me.
But towards the ending of the final class, I was made the best in biology and economics subjects and you know what, girls were retracing their direction my way but hell no, low self-esteem was still there and I couldn't arrange any move.
And I accepted myself.
I don't know when exactly, but I found out that for a long time I haven't been worried about my light skin or slim body. When I entered higher institutions, I met friends that even admired my skin and they wished they had my kind of skin. And I was like, do you know what people say to my skin?
From there I began to see myself as "fine and cool". Every feelings of low self-esteem vanished.
I don't know how it happened but I see my skin light and glittering, no longer the look I used to give it then.
There was a time we were carrying chair at church during service and I had to fold/draw my trouser up to prevent water from staining my trouser, when a lady in our misdt saw the part I opened, yeee! She was shocked to see the light, fair skin and she complemented...you know that feeling🤗.
Like I used to tell people...
When you accept yourself, you'll see that you're beautiful or handsome. When you think that people are rejecting or turning you down because of one lack in your body, the more it happens and that leads to depression.
Oftentimes I throw accolades to myself when going through my gallery (since I don't have anybody to do that, let me do that to myself). I see my photos as cute and that of a movie celebrity.🤸
When I look at myself in the mirror, the words that come out from my mouth are nothing but accolades, I make myself special.
Now, the only way ladies would turn me down is definitely because of MONEY and not look, yeah it can't be my look. Even though the lady doesn't find my look attractive to her, I don't consider it, I assume it's my money that made her turned me down...JUST TO FEEL SPECIAL 🤸.
I may not be handsome to everyone's standard but I'm handsome within me and it's keeps me going.
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SAY NO TO LOW SELF-ESTEEM
Thanks for reading
21st January 2022
Those people that kept picking at you were the one who actually felt. Inferior and unsecured in your presence believe me. Some people would try their best to pull someone down who they perceived a threat, thats what I have understood about bullies. They derive joy in making their victims feel sad and inferior. Never give them that satisfaction.