Burned out but you can't stop!

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How do you feel when you are burnt out but can't do nothing to stop. You had so many responsibilities in your shoulder to attain and meet. Being a father, mother,daughter, husband, wife, son or sibling. We are affiliated to the obligations for our families. Maybe some say, just stop and say no. But that is not as easy as peanut though.

Most of the time I encounter a lot of words regarding our obligations to our family especially in Filipino culture. It seems that children should shoulder every inch of the financial necessities of their families after they found a job or get a job to start on their own. Some are forced to work abroad for the benefits of the family on top of their future preparations. I guess some parents thought their children as an investment (not all though). What hurt most if you disagree to what they want it turns out that you become defiant to them. You recieve a lot of hurtful words and even called ungrateful.

In some instances, being the bread winner of the family, a father or a single mother who alone is working for their families needs, always put the families sake to the extent that they got no more rest nor time for themselves. Though, burnt out to the whole stress and labor of everyday they can't just stop.

In some cases, in my own experienced. I have this feeling of obligations that if I had not do this my family will get disappointed to me. I work abroad as a domestic helper, I work almost 18-20 hours a day. My employer was not that big it only composed of a two pairs of mother and child ( three adults and a kid ) but my working hours was really annoying, the madam wants me to wake up early in the morning to prepare everything she needs in her cooking, clean and washed the unused utensils, as in everything should be wash and I don't know why, those are washed already at night. Cleaning the kitchen was done in the morning and at night, and the time of dinner was 11 pm or worst if they went to their relative outside usually dinner will be at 12 midnight to 1 am. Oh if I remember those hard moment of me I can't believed myself that I survived that. And then almost all my earnings was went out helping for my two siblings when they applied to work abroad too. Aside from that I also supporting the whole family for their needs. My father told me that I should saved for myself too but as soon as I recieved a message from them asking for money I am easily swayed to the thought of helping immediately. Untill the day that I go back home almost empty handed. I felt like a wilted grass, burned out from the hardship. Only my consolation then was a promise from my siblings to give help to me if I want to apply one more time.

I did try again my luck applying to another country, but fate was not so good to me though I can say that this time was a way better than my first experienced. To this journey of my life I encounter some kind of person that thought a good friend but in the end only used me for the sake of money, I never expected that person to take advantage of my situations. I just realized then when a problem arises she immediately saves her face. Fortunately, she never succeeded in finishing her contract and done a lot of changes but end up to nothing and just went back in the Philippines. I don't know is she already reap her karma.

Though burned out during those challenging days I choose to not stop, I choose to continue and tried my best to do better. Though burned out I did everything to finished my contract in spite of all my unpleasant experiences.

Maybe some of you here is feeling burned out already but choose to keep going in order to achieve your main goal, weather for you or for your loved one's.

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Article #42
Published: November 12,2021 
Time: 2:55 AM PH 
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