Meet Four Worlds: Painful Goodbye at Fourth

Date: February 17, 2022

I'm happy to be alone for half of my life. No one hesitates nor restricts me to do what I want of course except my parents and no one knows my little dirty secret. I had fun adventuring new trends that I believe staying there will be a great experience to an inexperienced person like me that is naive to reality. Apparently, being a wattpad reader I felt like I am knowledgeable about life especially in terms of relationships but in reality it is so much harder than I expected it to be. I became a fan of various dating applications that I thought would kill my boredom in other ways and to find more entertainment, specifically hooking with one another and hoping of course to find jowable. Exchanging conversations until midnight on successive days without any level of relationship, in short , no level at all. In spite of having fun I come to the point where I lose interest in which one of my characters I like downloading now. delete later hahaha complicated right? but that's me. Moreover, I left that kind of world and came back when it seemed I was looking for entertainment.

My staying there was too long until I found another one that makes me sane and can't sleep because of overthinking the next thing that happens. From dating application back to wattpad world because I felt that I needed to escape the reality and be back to my character husbands where I could play different roles from damsel, mysterious to action depending on my mode. Reading makes me travel into other worlds where I could create and control my world. It could be me and him having a happy ending or a tragic and intense one. When the wattpad world gives me so many heartaches like when I was in a situation where me and my boyfriend break up. I always end up crying and put many emotions into the story I am hooked on.

Later on, I became an addict again but in a more manageable way. I discovered Mobile Legends (ML) because of my friend who persisted and encouraged me to play. He shared the file without my permission but later when I explored it, I found it amazing yet hard. I know some people viewed ML as a bad influencer, conserving that many people skip their meals, lack sleep and soak in radiation which I disagree with because it's the user who chooses when to play and stop. So. it's a matter of choice. If you are an ML addict and have time management in other areas of your life, don't just focus on it.

Aftering entering those three worlds, and leaving the two, our paths collide in the third world which becomes more meaningful and valuable because we shared so many memories that some people thought were common and plain without knowing it's our haven which you and I cherish more. I was at the point of leaving the third world but because of you and our bonding I couldn't just delete and forget like the first two. Apparently, you become my fourth world where boredness has no room and I could finally say "I found my home" but it was too early to consider you my home. I thought I came the best like Wattpad stories I've been reading but life has something that I never expect to happen and come. Maybe for now, I'll leave my fourth world and slowly go back to the second world along in the third world to divert my attention until the time when the fourth world doesn't seem to exist as we met at the wrong time.

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