I still remember when I was highschool, I try to escape classes many times, a subject that I hate the most was mathematics. I have nothing to preserve learnings from that sub. I've rather put in my long term memory about those experience answering math in difficulty.

What should be in my mind that time? Let's start about why Im not interested about this subject. Before, when I was elementary my school adviser was an expert mathematicians. She was the one who honed student's skills in math. They gathered and attended several math competition all around the region.

One day, it was a bright morning. she's discussing about fraction. It was the day that I hate the most. Haha, She discuss about simple fraction addition. She was so dedicated to teach all of the class. And majority of the seems to learned effectively when she teaches us, except me. I was pressured that time cause I'm the only student who don't even understand the concept of fractions.

The teacher calls five students to answer on the blackboard. As expected I'm one of those students to answer. I was so nervous cause I don't have any idea. I started to pay back attention to the answers my seatmates. The time that the teacher called those assigned students to answer. Let me tell this story in a short time, I wrote the wrong answer. And I'm the only student got wrong answers. My teacher perceived me that I'm not to qualify for the next grade level. She remains me after the class dismissed. She teaches me about the specific topic.

She was a bit strict. And I'm a little bit of nervous. She was surprised cause I don't even know who to manipulate simple MDAS (multiplication, division, addition and subtraction). It was my darkest moments that time. I feel like I'm the sluggish person to learn. And one day I understand, maybe I'm not sure if I can graduate in elementary. It sink into my mind that maybe I'll be working directly to any specific job. I think can help my family if I'll find a job.

It's surprising

I don't know why but there's side on my brain to not just stop at school. Maybe it's because of the influence to our community. Cause majority of the children here are got at school despite of poverty. I rather think that it's a huge factor of my capability to enter next huge level of studies. I always think before that I'll just wait until I graduated from High School. Then, I'll be more focusing on find a decent job. To tell the story short I graduated high school way back 2013 and I'm so happy that time.

It never intersect in my mind that I'll be going to enter college. You how much is my capacity and capability. I have struggles to cope those basic knowledge from lower grade school. I have decided to apply for a job as a laborer. It is a private business owned by a foreigner which is called "Vietnamese". She was a girl. Let me describe her appearance. A square face, flat nose just like a natural born Filipino citizen. Her name is tan tan. By the way her business is about displaying random item. Typically, her item display are sandals, kitchen utensils, shirts, shoes, and even gadgets. She intentionally goes directly to public schools. She knows that teachers are interested with her items.

My primary job was laborer. I took item and arranged those item categorically. In my first of my job I found a slight strange. Maybe, it was my first time entering stable job. After many days of working I found out that the boss is seems to be stricker. I can't even take a nap in a single minute. She keeps giving commands albeit theres nothing customer. I always think that I can't even sustain this specific month due to its abusiveness.

By the way we are three laborer in position. One day while we're arranging the items. One of my companion slightly make a mistakes. He put out the wrong item into the other. Our boss wasn't pleased by what he is doing. She confronted the boy and yells saying " how many times did I told you not to mixed up those things here" All of the stuff was focusing on the embrassed guy. He just nodded and try to compensated what he's done. I was feel what he does. Being confronted in many people and what's worst is that it is in school.

I never hesitate to stopped working. Yes, we admit our wages is adequate to sustain us but it doesn't matter. Our job is considered heavy cause we lifted hundreds of sacks full of item. It approximately weighing 40 to 50 kilo gram per sacks. Our body after work seems to be over fatigue. I was so exhausted that time. To tell you shortly I stopped working there together with my two company.

Closing thoughts

I have decided to immediately enrolled in school. I found out life would be messy if I still working on a I desirable sort of job. Thanks to those experience I've done so much realizations. Like, I don't want to be forever there lifting heavy items. My body seems not to endure those job. Thanks for reading guys that's all I can share it to you about my real experience. Hope you enjoy!