Death after death causing so much pain.

I felt so tired for the past days and I don't know what's wrong with me but something is definitely going on out there that affects my spirit yesterday. While doing some household chores I felt that I'm running out of breath and I felt a little dizzy. I hate that kind of feeling because it hinders me to do a lot of work. I want to do heavy works such as cutting firewoods but I can feel that my body will collapse any moment so I didn't continue.

Do you feel also like this? When you're feeling like this one, doing something is very hard. That's for me and I don't know about others because it may varry to person to person.

When your body is the one who's giving the signal you better take it seriously. Our body is our asset in doing different kind of things. Even if you have the brightest mind here in Earth but your body is weak then definitely you can't fully do what you want. That's why we need to have the ideal body and mind in order to do the things we want to fully enjoy our life. I'm feeling tired a lot these past days and I know that there's a reason behind it.

Just last friday May 20 I came into conclusion why I felt so tired for the past days and it's something heavy again.

As you know my dear friends, my grandpa just past away last month of April then here we are now again, the wife of my grandfather's brother has passed away. The 40 days of my grandpa has not yet been finish but here we are mourning again. Her death is not sudden but still it feels so heavy in the chest.

She's suffering of diabetes for almost 2 years and she had a stroke back then that's why she can't walk and can't move the half of her body. I see her everyday in their terrace, sitting on her wheel chair with a sad face. She spent her life making bikos and different types of kakanin then she sells it at the market. When I go to school before she calls my father if she can ride with us and later on she's riding with us everyday. She will share some of her products as my snacks in school.

There are good memories to be remembered about her and now that she's dead, all of that are flashing back. Well her death is not so sudden not just like what happened to my grandpa and I can see it as a good thing because before she died, she said what she wanted to say and had a proper goodbye to us. To be honest I can't finish this article and has been drafted since the day she died and now I'm continuing it.

Death has just around the corner and our time is not within our jurisdiction that's why we should accept death as a partner in our life because that's what we will end up anyway. We should ready ourselves as we take the journey of our life.

Sorry for not being able to attend to your articles. My thoughts as of today has been all mixed up just like before. Maybe I can attend to your articles on the next days.

Author's note

Sometimes I lay under the moon and still I thank God that I'm breathing. It's nice to watch the birds crossing the clear blue sky while savoring the fresh air coming from the tall trees around us but there will be time wherein we will be put into a four cornered structure and have a long lasting rest.

When we wake up, we're in a different state for example we may be a stone, a tree, a fish, a crab , a dog , a cat or even an ant. I believe in reincarnation and I hope that my reincarnation will be just like my life now wherein I grew up in simple things. Embracing the simple life at the province.

That's my article for today friends and I thank you for being with me. Thank you for reading.

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