Intuition - my deepest secret

Do you have a deep secret that you keep to yourself and never talk about? I have always been afraid to talk to someone about my intuition. It is my deepest secret. When we say something out loud it gets more serious and I don’t want to attach much importance to it because I could become overwhelmed. So I decided to write about it here, to share my secret with you, an open mind people of the read.cash community.

I am a person with a very strong intuition. I realized that after a few of my dreams came true. Unfortunately, I only feel when bad things will happen, most often death.

It happened to me for the first time with my grandmother. During that period, I wanted to spend more time than usual with her. We would talk for a long time, mostly about the past. I had a feeling that I needed to know everything I might not be able to find out tomorrow. Then I dreamed I was talking to her and her face suddenly turned into a skeleton head. Shortly afterward, we discovered that she was suffering from cancer. There was no salvation from that disease and she died. I dreamed of the death of different people many times and the next day the death in reality happened. Not always the death of the same people I dreamed of but a person in a close circle.

The last and strongest intuition, which unfortunately I was not able to use smartly and possibly prevent the course of events, happened a year ago when my father died. A few days before his sudden death, I needed to see him often. I thought about all our past days and we remembered various events together all the time. We talked a lot but we also quarreled over unimportant things. I experienced these quarrels emotionally, although they were not serious or a big deal. I cried as if saying goodbye to him every time we got into an argument.

And then I dreamed a dream that I remember to the smallest detail and I will never be able to forget it. I dreamed of standing on the shore and looking at the sea. It was a nice sunny day. I was happy. And then a big black bird with big wings flew to me. We looked at each other, and then she flew away. I can still hear the sound of the wings fluttering as if I had experienced it in reality and not in a dream. When I woke up I was under a strong impression. I felt bad. I comforted myself with the fact that the bird flew away. I thought it was a good sign that it flew away. The next day, my father suffered a sudden heart attack and died at the age of 57. I was broken. I'm still broken. Now I just wonder if intuition could have helped me prevent that from happening. I will never know.

Sometimes I'm afraid to fall asleep because I don't know what I'm going to dream about. Sometimes I'm afraid of how I am going to feel. But I try not to think about it. Some things are stronger than us and they cannot be controlled. The human mind will always be a great mystery, even though science has advanced a lot. I am a scientifically oriented person and I hope for new scientific knowledge about intuition. I need to know more.

Thank you very much for reading.

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