When you are going through a difficult ordeal, you can't help yourself but question "how will I survive? I'm hopeless". Then, you make reckless decisions because you were overwhelmed by the emotions you felt during that time.
I must say that when you are in that zone, you can't think clearly and you lose focus on what's going to be the best solution. You are too preoccupied and become selfish because all you think is yourself, you don't care about other people's welfares.
Most likely, I'm referring to myself. These statements are true.
I was in a situation before where my character, patience, perseverance, and grit were tested. Obviously, I failed to accomplish what I have planned for myself. I was so into it that I forgot to take care of myself.
A tragic event has happened to me that changed my life. If you guys are already here for a year now, you probably know my story about my right hand. It's something that I can't share with no reservations because it has a trigger warning.
My what-ifs and could have beens
I have come to realize that what if it didn't happen to me, what am I doing in this world? Am I happy? Or I'm just doing these things because it's the society's decision for me to become to?
If it wasn't for that tragedy, I wouldn't have discovered my skill in playing the piano/keyboard.
I would consider that tragedy as a blessing in disguise because if not, I would still be doing things that I don't genuinely love. Because of that tragedy, I found some sort of a purpose. I have never been so hopeful and positive about a goal.
I mean, I was before but this time it's something personal. It's something I wanna do, it's something I'm most looking forward doing. I realized that before, I was too driven for my goals for my family but I didn't consider my own happiness too.
It made me realize that you can help your family without sacrificing your own happiness.
If it wasn't for that tragedy, I wouldn't have met you all guys here.
Joining read.cash has never been a plan. It just happened by chance. Who would've thought that I'll become a member here for a year and 6 months already?
I'm forever thankful for that one post I saw on Facebook and that person who taught me how to join here. I'm sure he's enjoying his affiliate payments from me. Regardless of how much it is, he deserves it.
If it wasn't for that tragedy, I wouldn't have grown to be a better and mature person.
It took time for me to adjust and accept the new life I should face. During the early months, I was full of questions and doubts about myself. I went through a major life crisis (I am still but manageable already), I doubted myself if how should I continue living with this impaired hand?
Then again, my family and my loved ones were there to keep me going. They reassured me that life is still going and I should maximize the second chance God has given me. That was the turning point.
It made me realize that there are things that don't go our way. Disappointments will be there, it's just a matter of how you handle it. I have learned to manage my thoughts by being aware of my actions towards negativity.
This tragedy helped me to be open-minded about a lot of things. My faith has deepened, I should work for my redemption. Then again, I believe I still have a purpose to fulfill because God didn't allow the situation I have planned before.
Do you guys have what-ifs in life? Are you satisfied with what you have become right now or have you just learned to accept and live with it?
Thanks for reading.
Keep safe everyone!
I have no idea about your hands ate pero as what they've said "Everything happens for a reason" Maybe it was destined nga mahitabo gyud to siya ate.