Was It A Good or Bad Decision?
August 18, 2022
Why do we always end up making the wrong decision even if we feel like we have done the right one?
I feel inconsistent and unstable recently that I doubted myself, my decisions and all. Probably because the aftermath of every situation doesn't coincide with what I wanted to happen. It seems like things always end up in the wrong position.
When I feel like I am doing the right one, it seems to end in the wrong spot. So oftentimes I would think, "should I just do the opposite?"
The sun seemed to be playful this morning and I hated its sudden change of mood. One second it was shining so brightly so I opted to put my clothes outside. Just a few minutes later, the sky started to cry, and it ended up soaking some of my clothes in the rain. I quickly rushed to put my clothes back inside. Then more minutes passed, and dark clouds seemed to pave the way for the sun to shine again. How annoying it was, right? It's tiring putting clothes back and forth. So I opted to put them all outside and I didn't care if it pours again. It did, later on, lol.
Come to me and we'll play. I guess the sun thought that way.
Getting back to my little sad emotions this morning, I questioned myself about doing the right one but ended up in the wrong spot. When I saw the untouched packs of coffee in the kitchen, I thought of doing the wrong one instead. It's prohibited to me, can't I break the protocols once in a while? I thought.
So I opened one pack and I realized that I actually missed its aroma. As I poured hot water into my cup, its scent swirled up into my nostrils which lifted my excitement to sip it.
Who can resist its enticing aroma anyway? It's been a long time since I drank a cup of coffee as I am always depriving myself of consuming it. It's after effect on my body won't give me the same pleasure as I am drinking and smelling it. It would wake up my pulses and later I would feel palpitations here and there.
But I didn't care at all as I just want to drink it once in a while, I just want to do the wrong one and see the aftermath. With little carbohydrates of sweet potatoes, my breakfast went great with a cup of coffee.
Was the aftermath good or bad? So far, I didn't palpitate that much. It's not really bad to do the wrong once in a while, lol.
Thoughts came overwhelmingly again when I opened my Binance account. The crypto market turned bloody red at the time of writing and what made me worry was the price of Bitcoin Cash. I did a little buyback the other day of the tokens I sold last month. And guess what? I bought some at a price higher than my selling price. Thus, losing some of my profit and BCH.
It's really annoying thinking that the crypto market doesn't always go along with my expectations and always goes beyond my worries. When I thought it will go up and I sell too soon, it will go even higher and scrape off some of my supposed to be bigger profits. If I opt to buy back as I thought it will recede soon, it will go even deeper, thus losing my gained profits.
I sold some BCH at $112, 115, 120, and 130, but the price seemed to be stuck above $130 so I opted to buy back at $135, giving up 2 BCH in this process. Is this a good trading strategy? Of course, not. Now the market is red and prices seem to go lower later. I am certain that I will regret buying too early again. I already lost my profit, and I don't want to lose more. Yet, that's inevitable and possible to happen later.
Sometimes, I thought that trading isn't really for me. It is such a great feeling when earning a little profit in it. Yet, as the market swing unexpectedly below our expectations, it seems to play with our emotions as well. I just lose my desire to get back to trading again.
Was it a good or bad decision to get back to trading? I don't know anymore. Maybe I need a little break from these online side hustles. Everything seems not to fall into the right places. Instead of growing BCH, I'm just losing it, especially on SmartBCH.
The previous year was lucky for me. But then again, luck wouldn't always in our side the whole time. This year seems not to be for me, in finance and health aspects. Or probably it's giving me reminders and bringing up lessons that I seemed to forget? Maybe.
And it seemed like Murphy's Law existed today. More circumstances happened consecutively. Going out thrice for instance, as I kept forgetting something and it was raining. And guess what? I was in a rush to go back home after finally finishing the forgotten task. The road was slippery and I accidentally stepped onto a fallen tree fruit. I almost fall!
Hayst. It was a tough day. Just a random rant. Thanks for stopping by.
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Kaya ayaw ko subukan yang trading ayaw ko magkaron ng madaming mood swings. Normal lang talaga makaranas ng ganyan, isa yan sa mga side effects na nakukuha natin sa market. Kung manghuhula lang Sana tayo.