I Thought She's "Real"

Mostly of us experience the things what we called temporary. The hardest part is we cannot predict when will it be. A lot of expectations stilled in our mind.

At the end, everything turns into a transparent. You will see yourself only. Nobody there but only you. It's one of the definition. It exist in the life we had.

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Let's Back to the Past

I said it in my previous article that I am a transferee student during my second year college. I don't have even friends at first day of school until I met a one girl which is my classmate. She sit beside me. We became close but on that subject only, we were not classmate in all subjects since in the first place I was an irregular student.

Different kind of students I encountered. No permanent but everywhere. Every year I met a new classmates and it was always a new faces. I didn't have a choice because I was an irregular student, I'm a new student in their campus. Sometimes it's really hard but I chose to be strong. One time it was a Filipino subject I met again a one girl there. She was really friendly. I felt comfortable with her. She makes me laugh. I felt excitement during that subject because I met her again. She has a new friends too then she introduced me to them. I was so happy since they were all friendly.

Mostly of our subjects we were classmate since we were the same which is an irregular students. The two of them were a transferee and the other two from a shifting course that's why they became an irregular students. Everytime it was our free time, we always have a picnic at the seashore and having a karaoke since one of us is really fond of singing since she has a golden voice. Until one time, I was so sad since the bond we have were breaking apart. Two of them met a new close friends and never have a time with us. The other two, decided to transfer another school and stop on her study.

I was so lonely. I missed them but I don't have a choice but to accept what happened. I was alone again. I felt the sadness. I have my classmates to talk but we were not close. I felt it was back again what I was before. I was grateful that I have my roommates who always there for me. They were so friendly and they called me "Ate". They were always supporting at me. Everytime I went to boarding house I felt the happiness and we were enjoying eating while talking then laughing.

I Meet Her

Until one day, I met a girl. She was my classmate. She became an irregular student that time and I don't know what's the real story why it happens. She is kind and a friendly too. I love her attitude and the most I like her she was very simple. The way she talk and her voice is different. I didn't expect that we became close. She was the one who approached me first. I was so happy since I met a new friend again.

We eating at the canteen. We took a lunch together. We celebrate my birthday. She always staying at my boarding house. We went to town buying some clothes. I don't have anything to say, she is something like a precious gift to me. She makes me happy. She makes me complete from the past experiences I have with those broken friendship. She makes me laugh. She is perfect. I was really grateful that she came in my life.

The Changes

Until it was Second Semester, she back as a regular student again. We still classmates and seeing each other but I was curious why I felt she was avoiding at me. Everytime I approached her she was avoiding me. She always with her friends before she met me since they were classmates again. I was so sad because she changed a lot. I was so sad and to tell you honestly I was so mad at her but I let her be because I don't want a complicated situations.

It's really hard. Now, I realize she's using me because when she became an irregular student no one is there she knows since it's her first time to be an irregular student. When she back as a regular, I'm the one who left with pains. Everything is changes.

I thought she's Real...😭

Life Thoughts:

There are people who came in our life. They give us happiness but in a short time since it is just temporary. We must prepare and aware with this kind of situation. It's part in our life.

Everything has a purpose. They came in our life to give us a realizations. The most of all they give us a lessons. They teach us how to be brave and to fight no matter what happens.

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Thank you so much. I hope I give you some life thoughts with this article of mine.

God bless everyone.😇 Keep safe always.🙏

-JRamona20 💜