Become Your Own Best Friend

We can't deny this eternal truth that We all are social creatures so we can't live alone, we need someone to accompany us, to spend time with us. But in the process of creating new relationships and maintaining old relationships often we ignore our own self, we give most of our priorities to someone else unbeknownst to us.

When we give most of our attention, priorities, love to others as a natural reaction we gets some heartaches, some heartbreaks, some pains, some sufferings which is pretty normal to happen.

Over the years, I have had learned nothing but how to become my own best friend, how to love myself with the whole heart. No one knows yourself more than you do, so try to become your own best friend instead of trying to find someone else. You are the one who will be there for yourself so never ever neglect yourself just to please others in vain.

Though I'm too strong to break now, but I also have a hidden side which is already broken and entirely impossible to entwine again. There were uncountable nights when I just shed tears silently, I cried not because I was hurt or broken but just because I wanted to make myself more tired, more weak so that I could sleep peacefully.

Over the years, I realised I need to be my own best and bossom friend, I need to learn to comfort myself without the help of anyone else, I need to learn to overcome the pains which I was and am dealing with . It was not easy for me to accomplish all these things but the best thing is I made it though I had to sacrifice a lot of people and things and I earned the most precious things, Myself and My Self-Love, now I have nothing to sacrifice so I'm not afraid at all to give myself all those things which I truely deserve. It is a never ending process which I'm still learning.

Just like others, I too had a pile of dreams and goals which I wanted to achieve but now I no longer crave for any kind of earthily materials, now for me my inner peace is the new success and destination. There comes a time in almost everyone's life when you can feel physically, emotionally, mentally sick just because you think you are not good enough, you can't do anything, you can't achieve anything, no matter how much you try.

Currently some people are asking me that 'They used to be your best friends, most cherished people but now why are you so mean to them?? Why you have changed this much??' I believe many of us have already encountered with this types of questions just like me where you don't have any proper answer to give them. But now I know why I'm behaving like this to them__ Sometimes you need to show people their deserved place and behaviour so they can't treat you like a trash again. Whenever I give some bad behaviors to someone in return, it hurts me more than that person as I'm not accustomed to do it but sometimes you have to do something which you have never done not because you want to hurt them but because you want to save yourself from decaying and withering.

Now my first and last aim is to be happy. I just wanna be contented , not confused, not hurt, not harmed, not withered, not stressed just Happy and Peaceful. We always considers a smiley face as a happy personality , a happy soul but not all the things works like this because sometimes some people can be sad, depressed with a wide a smile. They don't smile Just because it makes them more beautiful, They smile Just because they want to avoid some unnecessary melodrama and conflicts. There are some tears in the heart that do not reach your eyes,so you need to smile whether you want or not.

One can see the brightest, the strongest, the fun loving, the funny side of mine but unfortunately or fortunately no one knows that I also gets depressed very often which I wanted to show to my closest ones but now I don't want to show the broken side of mine because when people sees the fragile side of yours, they tries their best to break you again and again.

I have changed a lot I can't even describe how much. I'm not that girl anymore which I used be. I'm not regretting for all those things and people which and whom I lost as in the process of loosing, sacrificing and compromising I found a real gem, Myself.

Some people says that I have become heartless, maybe they are right I have become heartless just because I'm using my heart-less. My heart has already altered with a hard and tough stone so naturally my heart stopped a long time ago, the heart throbs I'm witnessing and listening is just nothing but a mere echo of my decayed heart. Now, I'm nothing but a mere shadow of myself.

It seems I'm stuck between my past and present. It seems I'm stuck between all the choices I have made and the opportunities I was and am too afraid to take.

The worst trait of mine is, When I cry about one thing I always ends up crying about almost everything which are messed up in my life. The best trait of mine which eventually makes me proud about myself is that I cried, I screamed, I suffered at night silently but I never ever gave up on life,on happiness, on people who truely loves me.

I just wanna say Keep taking your time for yourself until you find who you are again. If you feel low now then remember we sometimes need to go down just to rise again with more energy, more enthusiasm, more brightness just like the sun. We all are destined to lose and be lost but make sure you still have yourself, you still have your love , your care for yourself. No matter what happens, No matter what the situation is just try to be yourself as Being yourself is a Bliss itself.

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