Tired

Things have gotten a bit better, my supervisor is nice and boyfriend has been getting out of his relapse, i hope this continues

That's a good news... Everything will always be alright.. Btw, is your grandma's house just a walking distance from your office? The kind of transpo is what i hate the most in there.. Need to wake up so early just to be on time

We were asked to relocate to the company dorms which is like a 5 minute walk to the office. Still happy I'm living with my best friend though

I think you. will be more comfortable at your grandma's house... Usually there are limits at the dormitory

I feel those limits already 😂😂😂 like the lack of closet amd storage space, honestly And this other employee is such a pig but i can't force her to clean up her mess (it's everywhere tbh)

Lol.. Still have other things to handle 😅 how much more if you stay at the dormitory.. But it's okay if you are with your bf only in one room...

I will sleep na btw, goodnight 😁 Another btw, i like your artwork 😊

I am staying at the dormitory ;;-;; it's been a hellish week but it's a train stop away from bf's house so it's more bonding time with him and i love it, specially now that he's pulled out of his depression relapse

Nanighttt and thank you, I've been learning new watercolor styles recently

Oh i thought you haven't moved yet 😅 goodluck then..haha..atleast you can see your bf more often now..

I've beeen here for a week now and i do think I've already lost more weight than i should because of the stress amd from the small amount i eat. He was telling me off a while ago about how i can't finish my food anymore and how light I've gotten

Hala.. Hndi mganda yan sis.. Mas lalo ka papayat... Dapat dn may sapat n kinakain ka..

Hirap pag walang ref, can't make pre cooked stuff or store meat eh. And the food sa canteens, di masarap so i can't find anything i want to eat :"""

Wala lutuan sa dorm? Pro kht meron wla nmn ref 😅

Meron lutuan but no fridge ;;-;; i want good meat for once

Well things have gotten much lighter now than it was this hell week

You've only saw me draw now?

Maybe I've seen others but didn't know it was your work...bit you're good!!!!!

Maybe? But we weren't that close before, probably XD i actually miss drawing nude but I'm afraid of getting banned here if i did that

😂😂😂 please don't get banned, as much as I'd like to see those

I haven't even visited the gallery yet ;;-;; i wanted to see my sketchbooks from before. I wonder if erotica works here

I don't even know about that

I regret working ng napakalayo 😭😭😭 and yes please, help me pray

Grabe kasi yung patakaran din nila huhu, pero fighting lang ateeee

Well yeah but I'll get to visit my fam next week, they'll drive me to my house after the shift

Thank you

Thank you so much

You could always practice when you have time

That's the problem hahaha. We are given with many activities to solve each day and I almost forget to sleep just to finish them all. Sometimes, I just find time to post here. Mostly, things I have written before.

I've been busy to but i needed the therapy again so i just went woth freewrites because it's easier

I think I'm getting close to a relapse too but I'm still trying to do what i can to stay sane. I just want hugs

Oh no 💔 I hope not. I wish I could do that for you. Sending a virtual hug is the least I can do. Still the same since we talked about it?

Gotten worse. Now he refuses to eat. It's stressing and I'd get any hugs i can get

Shocks 😟 I honestly don't know what to advice anymore. 💔

It's alright, just help me pray maybe. That's all i can do now even if I'm not even religious

I'm glad that you mentioned about religion. I try my hardest to avoid religious stuff because you're not into it. So consider it done. 🙏❤

Thank you so much, i appreciate it. I'm hoping something happens that will help him though

Last resort ko na nga e

Yeah, they're getting this strict even if my dorm is literally on the other side of the block

Ai Grabe Pala.

Yeah, so ayun. Work-> dorm lang ako habang di pa approved request ko na umuwi sa next day off ko

Best what

Paintings

Ahh thank you

I can't handle the death of someone i love though

I'm sorry you have to watch someone you love die. But we are stronger than we think.

He's not dead but he's bern attempting to a lot again, it scares me so much

I'm sorry you're going through this situation. If he really has the need to commit suicide, I don't think anything will stop him. It would only be a matter of time. and sooner or later it will.

There are many strong things that you are going through. Look for a light to have peace with yourself.

I don't want to lose him too.. i already lost my first boyfriend in the same way, i don't think my mind can handle going through that anymore. Not after the years we've spent together

But daughter it's not about what you want. It's about what's on the minds of these people. Try to be strong yourself and do not fall into depressions that need medication. It's a vicious cycle -having depression and taking medicine - if you don't take medicine, you fall into depression.

But someone's death has nothing to do with work

Oh that's rather unfortunate then

Thank you so much for the hug, i appreciate it. And the pay is really good, specially for a starter like me that doesn't even have a license yet. It's still enough to help with my sister's school expenses and i can go out and go home if my travel pass gets approved but they're gonna be the ones who will drive me to anywhere I'll go then they'll pick me up again too

The adjustment should be easy but I'm just worried about other things and i want hugs

Don't overthink so much, that will cause you more stress and you'll get tired and demotivated eventually.

I already am. I can't stop overthinking when i have anxiety, honestly. I've just been taking meds again so i don't get severe attacks

Naah, just calm down have some enough rest so you will not be drained much.

I do. But I'm just restless. sorry

hmmp, I hope you will be okay soon.

They aren't chemists, man. I'm cured from my fever though and that's good. Missed my drawings?

Then what are they? Secret alien spies watching some select group of humans 😁 Oh I'm so happy you're good now. I really missed your drawings ;;-;; it's been too long. Even I haven't drawn in a while. The painting is really calming.

I think so? Or they could just be a bunch of crazies Ahh really? I'll try to draw more when i need therapy (which is recently, actually) I've been hoping for something calm. I need it