Why did She left?

February 23, 2022

I was missing in action here for 2 days. I plan to write an article last Monday and Tuesday but something shift my mood again and suddenly the ideas for an article are all gone. I have thoughts in my mind that I want to share yet I can't begin. I have a strong feeling that I got affected by the story a friend shared to me.

I felt sad after he shared his story to me. He is a good friend, a loveable, sweet and always funny person that I love to chat when I have time. He has been a friend since 2009. I met him when I was still active in supporting UAAP basketball players. He is one of my consistent groupmates watching the UAAP basketball live. For real, we belong in different groups but since he is friendly, he sometimes mingle with us before and after the game.

Then he become my constant chat mate after that and we haven't spoken for long now since I became ill before. We are just catching up with our story last year and LAST Sunday, he shared a very sad story. Warning, if you are having a bad day, might as well read other's article. I don't want to hold responsible for the heaviness you feel today.

To continue, all of a sudden he asked me if I still have my parents with me. He thought I have my own family now because it has been 12 years and more since we haven't communicate. I told him I am still single and addicted to BTS, but I told him that my father passed away and I have my mother as my only parent. Then he didn't chat back. After more than an hour he came back and apologise. I said its okay maybe he is just busy that is why he was gone for an hour, but he interrupted my chat and send this message. I will just translate in English.

"Sorry, I have to stop chatting for a while. I don't know that up until now I still feel the pain that my mother gave me."

I asked him what did his mother do to him and he shared me a story. He said that while he was young, like 6 years old, he and his mother was inside an amusement park. He remembered that he wants to ride a carousel and his mother line up to get him a ticket. When he was inside the carousel, he saw his mother waving at her outside. The carousel started to moved and rotate for once. His mother was still waving at him. On the second rotation, his mother is still waving at him, but she seems crying. On the third rotation, he saw his mother walking away from the carousel. He kept calling him and he was really startled but the carousel was still moving until he finally saw his mother running away. When the carousel ended, he ran after him but sadly he didn't saw her. That was the last time he saw her.

He was confused, he don't know what to do. He asked the help of the guard to look for her. He received helped from all the staff in the amusement park. They even used megaphone to say her name but she never responded. Good thing he knows their house address and he was brought home by the lady guards. When he was inside her mother was not there. Even her clothes where not there. His clothes and toys are there but there was no one home. He has his mother only as his parent. His father neglected them when he was born. The guards were asking about the name of his father but he doesn't know. He was transferred to LGU when it was confirmed that his mother is nowhere to be found.

After that story, he didn't shared more, but I was in the midst of crying when he said he felt bad after recalling his past so he better sleeps instead. I said it's okay and the he left. I have so many questions for him but he decided to stop from there.

In the end, he left me this kind of feeling that I really felt the pain he was feeling. I literally felt I was in his shoes. I don't want yo judge his mother but it lead me questioning, why? Why did she left her own child in a place where no one knows them. Why she didn't bother to come back for him? Is her reason that heavy to just leave an innocent boy? There are lots of questions bothering me. It am in pain that lead me to be absent here for two days because I still hasn't moved on from that story. It is one of the painful story I ever learned.

For sure you will feel the same. You will question the mother for leaving her little boy. Good thing God didn't leave him. I am thankful that God guided my friend and he become a good person, but still the question, why did she leave him?

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