July 7, 2022

Hello my beautiful co-writers in this amazing site!! How are you guys, hope you are doing great. I was busy the whole day but I like it. At work, due to stress, me and my officemate find something that we will be laughing about. We always talk sarcastically over the things that we going through at work and the result, we will laugh hard on it. What matters is that we find time to laugh in the midst of stress.

When I got home and resting, I opened TikTok to just check it out for a minute. One content used a Sister Filter. It was mentioned by my bff before and I tried it on my face too, before. I didn't like the outcome. I look like a doll of a witch. I don't know why for others who used that filter, they look gorgeous but when I used it, I look like the doll of a witch. Then again a Tiktokerist used that filter so I get intrigued. I used it and tried if I look the same, but boom!

I only screenshot it, I don't want to use it as a content. That is how I look like when I use the Sister Filter. I wonder why it changes. I don't look gorgeous when I used it before. Now I am totally different.

Here is the other screenshot. This Filter reminds me of a Filipino Singer in the 90s, Ms. Jessa Zaragoza. I don't know why, but I am really seeing her face in this Filter. Maybe because of the nose. I know her nose were altered. I am not sure is that is Rhinoplasty or other surgery, but for sure a person who undergo knife to create a new face they would want to look like this.

This Is another screenshot. You see in my face, I was little annoyed that I look this good. I wonder again why I look good in this Filter now. Then I realize it is about my hair. I definitely look like a doll because of my blonde hair. The Siste Filter looks good with blonde hair!!

I made lots of poses because I started to enjoy to see a face like this. What would happen if I look like this? What would happen if I were the face everyday. Am I safe to commute every day? Am I safe to walk alone? How about at work, can the men at the office concentrate on their work or they will be busy looking at me? Exactly, even me, if I have this gorgeous lady in the screenshot and she is my officemate I will just look at her for the rest of the day.

Oh, my real face is toooooo far to look like that. Again, I don't look that way, I just used a filter. I am a below average face of a lady that is growing old.

This Filter got me thinking. What will be my privilege if I have the exact face? Maybe I was scouted already to be an artist or celebrity. Or maybe I am already married and not living in the Philippines anymore. What if I have that face but I am dumb? Or coward? Or weak? I do believe no one has it all. If you have the face, there will something that would be lacking to you. You will not live perfectly even if you have that kind of face. I might always take care of myself too, because I might get kidnap by a mafia? Too much wattpad, huh.

On the other side, I want to look like that, lol. What if I have the face like that, what kind of treatments I will received from people? In my regular days, I am just a person trying to live despite the struggle. The only people that knows me are those who I talk with everyday. Others treat me like a fine air that is hollering around. Now I am thinking, if I have a money, would I try to alter my face and undergo surgery just to be beautiful? Of course, I am the only one who can answer that, but the answer is, I will think about it. I might as well use my money in an investment to grow other than using it in my face. If a certain beauty clinic will treat me for free, I will go for it!!

How to be this pretty without a surgery??

At once in my life I dream to be beautiful, but naturally beautiful, like when you wake up in the morning you are beautiful already. I want to look good in naked face, not because I put on a makeup. I am a person who doesn't like a sticky feeling in my face. Even the lightweight makeup feel sticky. I want good skin, pinkish and glowing. I want to be confident and not to wear any make up at all. This goes for a good reflecting and planning on my future face. I guess I go for the natural way. I don't need to be this gorgeous, I just need a good skin. This is so exciting!!

Images are all mine, screenshot of my face using Sister Filter at TikTok