The Life of a Fan Girl
February 15, 2022
I am Grecy and I am a Fan Girl. Fan girling is my game and I am good at it. I am doing this for long time. I am the person who loves my idol, meet them personally and supported them for a certain wavelength, it means, I support them in a specific time but it is for long time. To explain it further, I love all the idols I supported, kpop groups, boybands and even actors and actresses, but the energy of love lessen when they are no longer active. I still adore them, but there will be someone new.
I think my fangirling moments started when I was still in elementary. Do you know Ang TV? Ang Tv is one of the youth- oriented variety show in the Philippines way back 1993. Today's generation actors and actresses came from it with the likes of Claudine Barretto, Paolo Contis, Angelu De Leon, Victor Neri, Roselle Nava and many more. I was very very young when I realized that I can sing and dance like them. I just watched Ang Tv one afternoon, 4:30 pm to be exact and came to know these amazing kids. They become my first Idol. I supported them by being present to watch their shows and guesting in television. I only watched in television though.
Then came Streetboys. Streetboys is a dance group that became popular in the 90's managed by Chito Ronio. Vhong Navarro and Jhong Hilario came from that group. They popularized lots of 90's dance songs like Ragga Muffin Girl, Lick it, Selfish, and many more. Aside from them, I also have a favorite dance group and that is Manouevers. They are popularly known as the backup dancer of Gary Valenciano but later on they made their names as one of the popular dancer and choreographer in the Philippines.
The lineup of my favorite Idols goes on because I became addicted to Nsync and A1 during high school. Then generation to generation, I remember became addicted hooked to Highschool Musical stars, then Kpop idols Girls Generation, Wonder Girls and Super Junior. After a while, I got totally attached to Korean series while being obsessed to One Direction. Then 2NE1, a girl group where Sandara Park came out and I get hooked on them too. When I met BTS, or Bangtan Sonyeondan, I became a loyal fan and later on declared official member of BTS Army and at present I am still with lots of energy supporting them.
If you see, I supported lots of idols and all of them contributed to what talents I have. I can sing and dance. I know I got better with the help of all of them. They influenced me a lot and music became part of my life. I cannot live a day without music. I belong to musically inclined family and my parents met when I was not still here on earth through music. Music gives a big impact in my life and I think one of my purpose here on earth is to enhance music experience so that I can support my idols and to help myself to live happily.
Moreover, being a fan girling requires lots of effort and spending. Spending time and spending money is what I mean. Fangirling goes deeper as I aged. When I was young, I seize the moment when I was watching them in television, yet when I grow old,I started to buy their merchandise and be present at events they are it. When the time that social media started to be active, I was active in supporting them and always updated as well. Now, at present, I can say that the only remaining thing that I haven't done and know about my Idols is to know them personally and be a friend. I know their stories by heart. I am updated to what had happened to them from the start of their career. I always support them and even have my own Idol savings because I don't want to stop, I always wanted to be one of the first ones.
The Downsides of FanGirling
However, despite of the happiness and excitement my idols are giving me, specifically BTS as of the moment, I can say that roller coaster of emotions are always with me. They make me feel excited but they are the ones who hurt me too. Of course that is not intentional and they don't know what I really feel, but because my fan girling is now digging deeper, I get affected by the sad news and become possessive when there are possible dating rumors. I know I am matured to understand to separate my fangirling from reality, but I validate what I feel and accept that I am hurt sometimes. I keep it to myself. It is hard on my part but I don't question myself since it is my decision in the first place.
I guess I have full of love for them that sometimes I forgot about myself. It is an irony that BTS is teaching us to love ourselves but sometimes I neglect myself because of them too. I am slowly working on that because I am not getting younger. What is good at present is that I have my own personal goal. They are just part of my fangirling goal and Idol savings and I need to always remember to keep myself a priority. I would love to share some more of my fan girling experience but I will do it in my future post.
Do you have your own Idol story? Care to share?
In this platform my sponsors are my Idols. They are the reason why I keep on writing. As long as there is one person who leaves a comment and like my post, I will stay here in the site. I wish I am one of the valuable members though and I would love to feel that way.
Ang TV images credits to this link :
https://memorykill.tumblr.com/post/907022577
Streetboys Images credits to this link
https://ppop.fandom.com/wiki/Streetboys
Nsync images credit to this link
Girl'S Generation images credit to this link
https://www.koreaboo.com/news/girls-generation-snsd-comeback-eight-reunite-maybe/
Bts Images credit to this link
Yung mga idols talaga bumubuhay sa dugo natin. They keep us excited and fueled in life.