April 14, 2022

It is Maundy Thursday today. It is a holiday and a perfect time to reflect on your lives. We are in a modern ways of life that most of us are going back to province to spend time with our family as we have the half of the week to spend with them. Also, as it is the Holy week it is time for a vacation, but I hope we still have time to reflect with life and do the real purpose of Holy week.

As I begin reflecting, I was reading a book from Demi Lovato where she share her wisdom with life. I know this could help you realize your own reason why you are still breathing here on earth, as it helps me as a guide in my life too.

What makes of our lives and how we choose to fulfill it?

Everyone has a cause. They have purpose. They have reason why they are still existing. There are times in our lives that we feel we are losing it. We felt bored on how our live passed us by. Everything is the same thing. One morning we become tired as soon as we wake up because we will be doing the same routine, we will be dealing with the same people, same problems and same outcome. Life goes on without changes if you haven't started to change. You can tweak something new, but the rest in your lineup activity will still be the same.

When you wake up in the morning, even if you have the same activity, that is okay. Actually it is perfect. Appreciate that you wake up because others didn't. What you need to do is, first thing in the morning is to remember the reason you are still alive. Remember your purpose. If you have the list in your notebook, better read this as soon as you wake up. This will give you energy and inspiration to live for today and everyday if you do it over and over.

The Lights of my Life is my Life's purpose

This is the number one in my list. Obviously I am talking about my family. They are my light. I cannot see without them. I might have the most irritating family because of all the noise and stress they give me, but I cannot live without me.

I need to get up in the morning because I need to work. My mother prepares everything for me because she is a mother. A mother that will be forever loving her children, that gives her 100% supports in everything and who believes in me when others turned their back. She is my only parent now.

I remember before, I was too tired to get up and go to work. I don't want to work anymore. She was again prepared all the things I needed to go to work but I said, I don't want to work anymore. She just nod, but after a while I overheard her talking to her sister, my Auntie if she can borrow money for emergency as she was feeling that I will give up working again. My mother don't ask me a reason why I don't want to work, she will just nod and she understands it already. What I hate is, she will not complain with my decision. Whenever I feel like quitting, I can see how it stresses her. I am one of the bread winner and when I quit it becomes a big problem to her becuae I am the person that so easy to give money, because I'm not greedy. If I have money it is very easy for me to just give it to her. My mother once told my sister that I solve the money issue when we are in need and I never ask them to return it. That is the reason that when I quit, money becomes a big problem to the family.

That is my story why I get up in the morning to work. I don't want another stress for my mother to feel. Once she become stress, it is a problem to the family because she get sick. You know next when your parent get sick, hospital and medical bills. I rather get up and do what I need to do even though I have my own personal problems because I don't want to be the reason of stress and burden. Stand up, go to work and earn money.

This counts my best of friends too. I have two, but I'm closer to one of them. She told me that she needs me. That life is lighter with me. I need her too. I will never find a person that sticks with me despite my moodiness and worst days. She is one of my light and gift from God.

People I'm dealing Everyday and Strangers

I told you, I am an introvert and people irritates me. I don't want a sea of people, and I hate crowd. I can deal with 5 people and that is enough for me. One of the purpose I know is that, one day, God will give me an assignment. I might help a stranger without me being aware of it. At work, I know at one time I able to help someone dealing with stress of doing their task, or helping them to know something new. I had guided lots of people at work and some of them become a friend already. I cheer up some of them and that is I know my little purpose for them.

We get tired and demotivated, but we are not aware that in every waking time is the chance to serve others indirectly and directly. It is the time to solve misunderstanding and learning from mistakes. It is also the time to treat others their own medicine lol, because they deserve it. It is the time to receive all kinds of blessing and to meet new people that will give us new experience in life.

Dreams, goals and plans

I have lots of dreams, goals and plans and these are the most popular reason why I woke up everyday. Of course, they are still one of the reasons. I still have dreams but what is lacking is the burning desire to make it happen. Goals, I have long and short term, but I always failed. That boils to because of unrealistic plans. Everyday is a chance for me to re-assess myself, adjust, change and to make my plans better. It is never too late to make our goals and dream come true, and for real, it doesn't require an age, but a burning desire to make it happen.

Unnie, my Daughter Dog

Yes, I have favorites among my more than a dozen pets. It is Unnie. Unnie does not have a very easy childhood. She lost her mother when she was born and all of her 6 siblings died. We thought she will never survive too because she failed to drink her mother's colostrum but with the help of our team work, me, my sister and my mother, she able to survive and now she doesn't look like a dog anymore, more likely she looks like a boar,lol.

My other pets have the family inside, I mean most of them are born my our pets as their parent. They mutated in time. I am struggling to earn for their foods that is why I get up in the morning. It is required.

Getting back to Unnie, she might not be a young girl as she is a dog, but she is like a daughter to me. We might have different language, but with the look of her eyes and some hand and mouth signals, I know what she is saying by heart. We understand each other and I think that is a gift. God bless me with Unnie and Unnie is blessed with personality that I can comprehend. We are meant to be. I am waking up everyday because she needs me. I need her too. I can't live a day without her love.

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When you lose your energy to get up in the morning, find your reasons. You have lots of reason to get up and be thankful you are alive.

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