She is the daughter I never had...
July 18, 2022
Hello my amazing co-writers in this awesome site!! How are you all doing. I hope you are okay and doing good in this nice cold weather. I hope there is no strong rain in your area, just like happened last Saturday, it was raining hard that causes floods in different areas in Metro Manila.
Today is a fine day for me. Actually, I plan to share something about me today because I am quite startled when the content that TikTok is giving me is something about loneliness, depression and anxiety. I know I didn't click like on content that TikTok is giving me as I am using my other TikTok account, but it keeps on giving me contents like that so I cried a little, but nope, I can't entertain sadness for today. I should be grateful even though I have to admit I am feeling down.
To change my mood, I remember my dog earlier and she acts like a real human daughter. I recollected some of her acts just for today and it made me smile. Let me share it to you.
Earlier, when I woke up, I was not ready to wake up, as usual. I sat on my bed and she started to crawl into me slowly. She grabbed my hair that lead me to lay down again in bed. I slept for less than 15 minutes because of what she's done. When my alarm dozed again, I sat on my bed again and she cried. The cry is like the cry of a dog when they begin to miss someone. She is letting me know that she miss me even though she is still with me.
I don't have a choice but to hugged her tight and give her kisses. I told her that time is flying fast and we will be together very soon, later on. As I took a bath, I can see her on the floor. She is very sad. She is kind of thumping her feet on the ground because she really hates when I take a bath. She knows that once I take a bath, I will leave the house.
As I was preparing myself, putting powder on my face, she sat on my chair where I prep myself. I also put a powder on her face. I put on lipstick and I act like I put on lipstick on her lips. I told her she looks beautiful with that lipstick and she blink her eyes lots of times. When I changed my clothes, I act like I am changing her clothes too, but there are no clothes, it just let her feel like it. Her eyes truly smile. We are like mother and child.
We ate breakfast together and while eating I am talking with her. I told her that I will go home immediately and it seems like she understands it. When I am about to leave, she is teary eyed. She is just looking at me like we will never see each other again. If only she know how I cried too as soon as I close the door whenever I go to work. I have separation anxiety with her and I am just battling it out everyday.
I kissed her on the lips and waved goodbye. I heard her cry and I was teary eyed walking away. At work I get busy. I make sure the time will be fast. When I am busy I will forget about the time. Later on I will find out, I am going home again. She never knew I walk fast and I pray that there is an available vehicle for me so that I don't have to wait. When I don't want to wait, I walk and then I will see her again.
My dog will jump at me. She is a big and heavy fat dog but she doesn't mind me having broken bones whenever I lift her. What she wants is to make me feel she missed me and she just waited for me. We will have either dinner or snack together. She is not laughing or smiling, but I can feel she laughs and smiles at me. She gave me kisses, licking my cheeks and hands. When we hug, I can feel she is hugging me back with her tail. Now she is sleeping beside me and I'm doing this article.
I can feel how important I am in her life. My family is not even that happy to see me, but my dog treat me like I am a famous celebrity in the red carpet whenever she sees me. I am loved. Oh love her too. She is my life and I can definitely say I am her life. I promise that we will live each other for the rest of our lives.
She is not the perfect dog though, she is not really nice. Actually, she reflects my attitude. I am a snob, she is a snob too. I easily get irritated and she does too. I think whatever she sees in me, she does it too because it makes us one. Shet knows when I am sad. She knows the difference of being sad to being tired. She knows when I am sick and she is in panic when I am in pain. She asks help of the people around me when I feel ill. She even ask for update even if she is not talking. The look on her eyes will say so.
She knows when I am happy!! She jump with me. When I am exercising, she will watch me. When I am dancing, she thumps her feet and I know she is smiling at me. She sleeps beside me. She hugs me. She sleeps on top of me until I can't breathe anymore. She stole my pillow and blanket. She kicked me out of bed. She is funny, she makes me laugh all the time.
I think she is the daughter I never had. I never been in a relationship. I am already old. Maybe I supposed to have a daughter, but I didn't try to be in a relationship to be a mother so God gave me a dog instead. A dog that will become my daughter. God gave my dog specific characters and ability to make me happy. God gave me patience and understanding to be able to be a person for my dog. Because of that, we become perfect for each other. We are doing each other's purpose.
This Is the kind of blessing and a gift for me. I can feel that God is watching me, and guiding me because she gave me a dog that understands me. She act like a human because she is supposed to be my daughter but I don't have it, but I have a dog. I have a daughter Dog and I love it!
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such a cute dog she is. i'm glad she keeps you company and wakes you up every day, ganun dinkasi yung kids sis, ayaw ila iwan pero pagdating mo excited naman.