August 23, 2022

Hello everyone, I am on the very low energy and severe demotivating right now. I don't know what happened to me. I am on the reading side now and I can't pick up a topic out of reading those articles. I remember before that once I read something, I either reflect on it or see myself on it, then I will find myself creating my own story. Right now, I am not sure if I could finish this article in an hour.

I am now on a phase that whenever I write something, it is always hard. As a writer or Blogger, topic to expand is one of the challenges. You need to attract readers from your title itself. You need to attract them so that they keep on coming back. You need to get their attention. I hope I survive this.

However, it has been a week that I noticed that I have the urge to write in a specific time. I was about to shut my eyes and then certain topic will come out and this will keeps me awake until dawn. It will just roam around my brain until I am not posting or making the draft. But I hope to sleep that time, so I try to sleep while my brain is working. The result, it ruin my sleep and I failed to create something.

My brain works and I feel creative starts at 1am. I remember before that instead of sleeping, I starts sketching and it ended at passed 3 in the morning. My creativity ruin my normal sleep. I felt satisfied but my health is at risk. I had a migraine the next day.

I wonder why I am more creative starts at 1am. Maybe because my brain resets from all the exhaustion I had during the day. Also at night, I am using less energy since I already rested or about to get a rest, and that rest is use to power up my brain. That is why resting is very important. If we know we will use up all our energy during the day, let us allot time to rest long during the night. This will prevent us from exhaustion and burnout.

Also, I am nocturnal. I remember when I was a wattpad writer, my small number of readers will wait for my new update at 3 in the morning. That is because I start writing at 12 in the midnight and I will finish before 3 am. My mind is always fresh and resetting at midnight. A good sleep is my engine and I am like a machine starting to work on.

I also start blogging at 1am when I was blogging at Blogjob. My article has sense and I believe, with quality during that time. However, my goal is to get some sleep at 2am or even earlier than that, because I am taking care of my health, physical and mental. Now I don't know what to do. I feel bad and demotivated because I wnat to develop my writing and learn from everyone, but health is my priority. If I will not write then there is no side income, but I will be healthy and I should be. Please recommend something that could help me survive this challenge!!

Images from Unsplash