May 17, 2022

Good day guys!! I was having a hard time earlier at work and I kept telling myself why I am like that? Why I am always tired? Why I do like talking or socialising with people exhaust me while everyone is doing fine and seems to not having problems at all. I told you I am an introvert and I have some issues that I find weird so I try what is all about.

I made a little research on Google and I found out that mostly Introverts (like me) have high Functioning Anxiety. I am not sure if I can define the term so I will just share the 15 Signs if I have it and understand myself more.

To be honest, no one can tell easily if someone is having High Functioning Anxiety because most of the ones that have it are successful leaders. They act like confident but they have lots of fears in the inside. Unfortunately, most of them do not understand where the fear came from.

Let us find out if we have High Functioning Anxiety by observing the following 15 Signs.

You are always prepared

Yes I am. At work, I do not start a day without jotting notes. I even check my task from last day and add those I failed to do. I cannot start a day without it. If I dont do it, I cannot function normally.

You are scared on the Inside, but appear calm on the outside

Yes I am. Remember lots of fire Incidents in our place, whenever there is a siren sound that is giving us that there is a fire happening near our place, my mother will be startled easily. I am the one that appears calm and okay. I will check the place of incident first and decide what kind emotions I will feel, but still I look calm. It took me a while to show my fears but on the inside, I am screaming of fear.

You see the world in different way

Yes, I think I am. I don't understand this but sometimes I think I does see world in a very different way. If people seeing it as the nature is okay, the weather is okay, me in the inside have doubts and I am losing hope. Just recently, there were scientists who are protesting and getting the attention of people regarding the safety of our planet. Some people are showing signs that they want to help, but me on the inside is looking at it as hopeless. My faith in humanity helping the environment went to zero.

You always need to be busy

Yes I am. This is true. While I am watching Korean Series or any BTS content, I am aware that these are my outlet, but in the middle of it, I will remember I am slacking off. I feel guilty because what I am doing will not make me help to earn money more, so I will stop in the middle and do something profitable. When I am home and just sitting, I will feel guilty and useless. Just recently I found myself being lazy with everything and I suffer from thinking that I wasted a day being tired and just resting when I know I deserve that rest.

You are successful, organized, detailed oriented and proactive

Yes, I am all of it, but not being successful. I have my different definitions of being successful and right now, I am far for being it. I am organized, detailed oriented and I take action immediately. I want to know what will happen if I do things like this and that.

You are afraid of disappointing others

Yes, I am. At home, when my sister ask me to buy something in the Grocery I will ask her the details of what she wants. She wi just say just buy it. Once I bought it, and she looks disappointed by it, I feel bad. I usually become silent and will not talk anymore.

At work, I know I am working hard. But when someone suggest I should have done this than that, like changing my normal routine, I will feel discomfort. I am feeling they are satisfied with what I do when they don't know how hard for me to adjust just to finish it. I don't explain how I feel though, I just listen and be quiet. I will not tell them how I feel. I will keep it with myself.

You talk nervously

I am an introvert. Mostly I talk comfortably with people who are closer to me. I don't initiate conversations, I rather be left alone. But if I am with people who are not closer to me, there are episode in my life that I talk to them but I'm perspiring. I am totally nervous without a reason.

You build your life around avoidance

Yes I am. Just recently there is an upcoming outing at work. Listening to people cheering and being happy about it, exhaust me already. I usually avoid something that makes me feel enthusiastic and overwhelm at the same time. I am thinking about socialising and being there in the middle of the crowd makes me feel tired already. I avoid events. I am only for the small gathering and they should be the people I really know.

Let me cut it on 8 signs for now and let me continue tomorrow for the 7 more. Based on the 8 signs, I am already positive that I have High Functioning Anxiety. Will share my complete assessment of myself tomorrow too.

Do you have High Functioning Anxiety too? Share your thoughts!

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