Hello reader's and writer's how are you? I hope you all are doing well and in a good health. Today is such a tiresome day for me, since my son is not feeling well, the whole day he was so irritated. Whenever he don't feel good, he always wanted me to carry him, and he always wanted me to stay on his side. He would cry if I tried to leave even just for a second, and he don't like to be anyone than me. They says it's normal because babies feel protected if they are on their moms side. So even I already felt that my back is aching because of carrying him, I endure it for him. That is really the reason why I don't wanna go back to abroad for work. As I always felt how much my son needs me, specially if he don't feel good. He always wanted me.
That is also the reason why, I wanted to master my baking so I can make a business from it. I am planning to enroll and study baking, but I am not really sure about it yet. I wanted to enhance my knowledge about baking, and I really felt that I really needed to study to learn more about it. I like baking, but I cannot say that I love it. And there's a big difference between like and love, and maybe that's the reason why no matter how hard I try, I never been satisfied with my baking skills. I like it, as it become my stress reliever if I feel stressed, but I don't love it to the point that I'm gonna dedicate my whole life on it. And because of that, I need to learn how to love baking, so I can open my imagination and become a creative baker and be able to accept orders. For me, a baker is not just a baker, he/she is also an artist.
Today, when my mother-in-law went home from her work, she told me that one of her co-worker's wanted to order my cake for Christmas. I was surprised and happy, that somehow they like my cake. But at the same time, I felt scared about accepting orders. I'm not that confident yet, and I don't have enough trust with my baking skills. I'm scared to disappoint their expectations, as I'm still not a master about the right balance of the sweetness of my bread. There were really times that my cake is too sweet and sometimes it's tasteless. Honestly as a beginner it's normal, I should not expect too much on myself. As we all know, there's no student who can easily copy her/ his teacher works, it takes time and enough effort to achieve it, so I should slow down.
That is why sometimes, I feel worried whenever my mother-in-law bring a slice of my cake to her work place. Because for sure she will share it to her co-workers and I'm afraid that they might don't like the taste of my bread. So today, I'm surprised that they want to order my cake. My mother-in-law say's that they like my cake, as it's taste is not too sweet and my icing is not too oily. They also like my cake bread as it's not too dry, for them it's okay though not perfect 😅.
Actually after I feel happy about what I heard, I suddenly felt pressured. My mother-in-law already give them a price for my cake lol. I felt like, how can she gives them a price as we weren't yet sure if I can bake 😂. I told my mother-in-law that I'm not really sure about accepting orders. I wasn't yet confident about my baking.
I know that I'm again overthinking, but my emotions is too fragile 😂. It ain't strong enough to hear bad comments. 😂 This is actually really bad, as I am into conclusion already. I haven't given it a try, but I already felt the pain of failure😅, bad cheetah 🐆 lol.
Anyway what do you think guy's, should I start accepting orders or not yet?
I keep on trying to convince my self to give it a try, but I'm really scared 😂. I should encourage my self more and I should trust my ability in baking too. Overthinking is again murdering my dedication for baking. Honestly overthinking is a silent killer of our joy, as it is always doing her best to stop us from doing better. But I think, I just need keep on practicing, I think before Christmas, I have already learned everything. Cheers me up 😊😂😂( fighting self 💪)!
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November 16,2021 22:30
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Go for it, start accepting orders na!