Each one of us has different personalities. We have different preferences and perspectives in life, likes and dislikes, strength and weaknesses, and that make us unique to one another.

Anyway do you somehow consider your imperfections as your weakness, as I do? I bet you don't, isn't it?

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So today I wanna share with you some facts about me, as maybe we have similarity or one thing in common, despite of being different. My topic was focused on my weaknesses, as I consider them as my imperfections.

Let's go!

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I am a forgetful person

In all honesty I don't know why I am being forgetful, before I thought I was just stressed, but I am good on forgetting for almost eight (8) year's now, so should I start worrying?

However my forgetfulness has a good side tho, as this time I can easily forget those bad things that had happen to me. I can also easily forgive the person who hurt my feelings because I can quickly forgot the cause of the misunderstanding.

But the bad side was, I even started forgetting the name of my favourite niece.

The mere fact that I am the one who gives my niece first name is worrying me, as even her nickname I can't remember.

Just this few days ago, I was about to comment in my sister-in-law's post in her Facebook account about my niece graduation day, but while typing my comment I hardly remember the name of niece. I made a pause and try to remember it. After one hour of thinking I finally remember it, but it leaves me with worries.

Furthermore until now I'm still confused, if am I really forgetful or I just don't pay attention?

However, I know for somehow that there's a big difference between being forgetful and not paying the right amount of attention. In my own differentiation between this two, forgetful means you easily forgot the things, while not paying attention means neglecting. Am I making any sense?🤔.

Perhaps maybe I just don't pay attention that I am already a forgetful person. I'm confused!🙈🤷. Is this also a sign of aging?

This incidents actually makes me worry about myself as I even overthink. What if my memory is slowly slowing down and I am not aware of it? What if I put my family in danger because of my forgetfulness? What if I wake up one day, and everyone around me becomes stranger? This is scary.

I usually overthink

As what I have said, I usually overthink. This negative attitude of mine is literally affecting my daily activities, and it's bothering me. Overthinking always pulled me back from doing my want's and it's stopping me from achieving my goals.

I am aware of this bad habits of mine, so I always try to stay positive but it ain't easy. Was it because I am doubtful? Perhaps maybe because I have trust issues. Was it? Well I guess. 🤷 Hopefully I can get rid of it.

I am very emotional

People who knew me personally think that my emotions makes me weak as I always cry even just by watching a movie. I always run away whenever I get hurt.

This is also the reason why my partner and I always have a misunderstanding as I am very sensitive.

I don't how if this is just the effects of postpartum.

I am clumsy

Another thing that I hate about myself is my clumsiness. Actually it's not only me who hate about it as also my partner hates this behaviour of mine. I don't know if I'm just stup*** or what? But sometimes I really can't avoid not to make a mistake.

The worst incidents that happens because of my clumsiness is when I almost burn the apartment.

It happens in one unfortunate morning last year.

I wake up and I felt hungry, I went to the kitchen and I saw that we already have food, and it was cooked by my mother-in-law. She prepares pork soup that time.

Since I wanna eat the food when it's still hot, I preheated it using the gas stove. After I open the gas stove I went back to our bedroom then I lay down in our bed then I checked my phone. I scrolled in my Facebook account, and wander around the internet until I fall asleep. I don't remember if for how long I've been scrolling in my phone before I fall asleep but after one hour I wake up and upon opening my eyes I saw that our bedroom is already full of smoke. I even wonder where the smoke came from.😫

I really forgot about the soup, and guess what? I even took a picture our house that was full of smoke before I went to our kitchen, as I am really innocent.

When I entered our kitchen I got panicked as I saw our pot is already burning.

Jesus! I was so stu*** and crazy!

I almost put the whole apartment in fire because of my clumsiness. My partner got very mad at me after I told him what happen as I put our son in danger.

Anyway it's getting late, and so I guess this is all for today.

.. thank you for staying with me.

July 01,2022

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