Hello reader's and writer's how are you all today? I hope you are doing well, please stay safe and stay healthy. I already have so many shortcomings in this platform, and I'm really sad. I'm afraid to think that one day, I can't be able to write anymore, as I already lost all my motivation, but i hope it won't happen 🙏.
Unfortunately I don't have any interesting topic to write again, as I am so much busy the whole day taking care of my sick partner. I keep on trying to convince him the whole day, to see a doctor but he keeps on refusing. I sometimes don't understand why men hate to see a doctor when they got sick. I don't know what's the reason behind it. As i grow up with a father who also don't want to see a doctor, and just died without knowing his real illness makes me more worried for my partner . I was really worried as he keeps on vomiting, while having a diarrhea and he is suffering headache too. I already don't know what to do, as I am afraid to give him any medicine as he has a lot of pain to complain. He says he's back is aching, his stomach is aching and etc, and yet he still don't want me to bring him to the hospital. He sometimes say's that he felt like he was dying, to annoy me. I am so much worried as I noticed, that he already loses some weight. He don't have any appetite to eat because his stomach is keeps on aching. Last night both of us, including his mom, don't have enough sleep, because every hour he vomit.
My God! My birthday is approaching so soon and my only wish is a good health for my whole family, I really wish that wish will be granted.
Somehow to release some stress i tried to read some articles, but unfortunately no matter how i tried to understand what am i reading, my brain isn't functioning well. I can't totally understand every words that i just read, stress is really bad. Sometimes even I'm already done with the things that i just need to do, i will do it again because i immediately forgot that I'm already done doing it. Sometimes I'm scared, thinking that maybe I'm already having an early stage of Alzheimer's illness, but actually it's only because I'm stressed.
Actually today I am planning to let this day pass without writing anything, as I don't have anything to share. But since I can't go to sleep because my partner is still awake, i found myself typing. Another stressful history of my life again lol. What can I do, if trials and challenges will always there to test you.
But no matter what, through thick and thin, through sickness and in health i will stay strong for my little family. I just really wish that before my birthday came, everything is already okay. I don't need any material things, just a healthy body and mind for my whole family.
This is all for today guy's, I'm so sorry if my blog sometimes makes some of you worried. I'm fine and i know i can handle this, everything will be fine soon. Just like what I always said, be careful and never neglected your own health. My partner is actually being too abusive to his body, as he sometimes didn't eat healthy. He keeps on neglecting his own health, so now his body is asking for what it deserve.
Closing thoughts;
Life is full of beautiful trials and challenges to strengthen your faith. No matter how heavy your problems, just pray and hope for a better tomorrow. Life must go on as a rainbow will surely shine to bring some colours to your day. Keep on striving, and keep on fighting. Stay strong and healthy.
December 09,2021 23:26
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Prayer is the most powerful weapon. We might get into a tough situations, exhausted day and unbearable pain, we should never give up.