The fact that different people come here to motivate us or cheer us up doesn't mean they aren't facing anything bigger than them. It's funny when you hear a marriage counsellor having a broken home or failed relationship right, yes it happens and that's life for you. So many motivational speakers out there are facing something way bigger than what they say but they have to summon that courage and put out a smiling face. I give strong kudos to people of such including myself, it ain't easy out there.

I was talking to @Jumper-01 yesterday and we were talking about life as a whole and he said something that I could hold onto, he said "just stay happy cos life is hard right now", what he said was right cos presently it is for real.

Do you know how it feels seeing your mate that you both graduate from secondary school already done with University and already serving? Not just that, your cousins that you are far older than already on the same level with you in school and about to graduate before you? I understand that everyone has their time, is not about who graduates first and blah blah blah but NO, as a human, I am expected to think about it 😭😭😭😭.

It doesn't sound so well for real but who am I to accuse God of what he has planned. Jumper said he is tired already and so also me, I am damn tired of everything and it becoming very uneasy for me. I had to post on my WhatsApp this afternoon that I need to change my environment cos I believe the environment is part of what is not allowing me open to opportunities. I am just restricted to the people on my WhatsApp chat list, the kind of people here in the environment are not up to the standard that can show one opportunities cos they are mostly illiterate. I can boldly say 95% of them are illiterate and they have passed it down to their children also and they seem to have normalised it.

Is it that environment you still want me to stay in during this trying time? No, but that's where I will still have to stay cos no financial support to relocate to somewhere better. Financially, only God has been sustaining me and my family cos my dad's sickness has taken a lot from us but here we are, doing fine in God's glory.

All these I have been battling in my head, thought and I couldn't figure any way out. I just wished God can answer my prayer immediately and everything I have ever wished for come to pass but No, it's never done that way. It's God I will keep praying to but deep down, I am weak and tired of everything. I can't keep pretending any longer, I am fed up and wish things can just go as planned.

This was just what happened to me today, it spoilt my day and I was sad all through but I am fine now. The word of God has comforted me cos I went to Bible study this evening and I was happy I went to listen to the life-changing word.

Thanks for reading, I appreciate your effort in doing that, God bless us all.

Appreciation

A very big thank you to @JenThoughts for counting me worthy to be my sponsor. I was happy when I saw it and I couldn't resist the urge to thank you so much, I appreciate it. God bless you dear 🥰🥰🥰, I love you 🤭.

Bye for now 🥰🥰🥰.