I Don't Know What I Really Like

I am currently torn between what I would like to pursue in a freelancing career. There are so many inspiring testimonials I've read on Facebook that they are already 6 digits earners through freelancing even if they are only high school graduates. I was like “Wow!” I don't mean wow by the 6 digits, it is roughly 100,000 pesos earnings per month in our currency. Money is really tempting but it's not all about that.

What I was amazed about is that a high school graduate was able to pave their path in the freelancing industry, doing work that is the same as a bachelor's degree holder. The one who posted it studied accounting and bookkeeping by taking online courses. Also watching tutorials on YouTube.

I Don't Know What I Like

By reading the testimonials, I got interested to study accounting and bookkeeping course. This job has better pay, that's why I got interested. You know money can motivate us! I was actually interested in accounting course back then pffffffft!

Then, I read another testimonial that she's earning well with an SMM or Social Media Management ..this niche also pays better. So I got interested in SMM again.

Another one I've read as they are earning stable as well is becoming VA Virtual assistant.. then I got interested again. Like what the hell?

Last week, I received an email about becoming a legal writer. It's a niche for writing articles in the field of law. I was interested in how to become a legal writer as I like to engage with lawyers. I just feel like I would look smart if I were in that circle haha! I was interested in law too.. beforeee but those are just wishful thinking.

My interest in pursuing digital marketing business is still there. But this will cost me money like buying a domain and hosting name on my website and along with that, I have to study how to be an SEO specialist so I can apply that to rank my website. Also, I have to master Copywriting so I can market my affiliate products well. That will cost a lot of time to master it. It also needs money which I don't have right now.

I am torn between studying Accounting & Bookkeeping, SMM, becoming a VA, Legal Writer, or Paralegal VA, or pursuing a digital marketing business that includes SEO and Copywriting mastery.

My brain is too small to digest and decide what I like.

Despite my confusion, I'm still pursuing a Content Writer right now. I just wanted to utilize the skills I have before jumping into another.

Motivational comments

While I am in the stage of confusion I still apply whenever there are job opportunities that I think I can handle. I bump into an SEO content writing with a law firm niche. I was selected to join the pool of writers, right now I still haven't been given any task..but the team leader said she'll notify me when there's available backlink outsourcing.

I also received an offer from Upwork. The pay is low-ball but I applied since I want to have another client in Upwork hoping my account will grow little by little. I was just happy I was able to get another client in Upwork. My account is still working in progress just like me.

I posted about becoming an SEO writer in a law firm niche in noise. app and MommentswithMatti's comments motivate me. She said “You can be whatever you believe” and I agree with that. I can be whatever I believe, just that right now I don't know what I like to pursue. Thanks for motivating me sis at least there's someone who shows support even if I am uncertain of what I am doing.

Studying is not that hard if you are it is what you want. This is why my eyebrows raise whenever someone says to my face, just do things that are on your field. Without even knowing why I am doing it, I mean why would I apply to niches that I am unfamiliar with? it's because I am still at the point of finding what I want. I also after the experience, because I learn things quickly by doing it.

Nobody is pressuring me to learn all of it, it's just me who is so trying hard of becoming something. My husband even said, “One step at a time, just work on whatever you have right now before thinking of other things.” He supports me all the way and even congratulates me on my Lil gigs. When I failed, he just said “keep going, the world doesn't end there.” Although, I am uncertain. I do listen to him and take one step at a time.

I hope one day, I'll wake up finding what I really want to pursue. Being a jack of all trades isn't good, it doesn't make you an expert.

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