“One day, I'll prove to you that you'll regret treating me unfairly. One day, you'll accept me and prove that it's not really a lose when you give birth to me!” I always tell this to myself way back. Some of you knows how my mom vent her frustrations on me for having a bad life situation when in fact it was the results of her wrong decisions.

I think the day has really come, I mean when I started to turn my back on her she started to realize how she treated me. “From now on, I'll forget that I had a mom! Let's just forget each other!” I was frustrated. After I sent that text to her, we never contacted each other anymore although we know each other's numbers.

I was mad even more when she had new boyfriend

My mom has many failures when it comes to decision making that is why when I know that he has new boyfriend I was really mad. I posted at noise.cash yesterday and it goes like this;

When my mom had new boyfriend before I was so mad, kasi bakit parang di mabuhay buhay nang walang lalaki. Puro kasi sira ulo mga naging ka relasyon nya, she was battered with my step father. Plus ako anak sa pagka dalaga nya. Then naghiwalay sila nang step father ko kasi di na nya nakayanan pambubog.

Then she went to Manila para magtrabaho at supportahan mga half siblings ko.. then later on nagka jowa na nman sya, I was so mad kasi imbis atupagin na lang mga kapatid ko mag jowa pa at nag live in sila sa Neuva Ecija.

When I got pregnant.. at nanganak they supported me financially kasi wala pa work yung partner ko.

Dun ko nakilala yung LIP ni mama, mabait naman sya at inaalagaan si mama kaya naging masaya na rin ako para sa mama ko.

Ngayon uuwi na si mama sa province namin for good, she's on the way and her partner chatted me saying I'll chat him if my mom arrived safely. I am kinda sad they didn't went back in here together, kasi ayoko malungkot mama ko. Nakikita ko kasi mabait yung lalaki at inaalagaan sya, my mom is getting older too so she needs company too di lang puro pag alaga nang mga anak, for happiness na rin.

Hopefully he will come to our province sooner too. When we grew mature we will learn that our parents needs some company as well, di lang anak.. kasi may sarili din naman sila kaligayahan, lalo na they are getting older.

Source: Own post at noise.cash

Yes, I was really mad when she has new boyfriend before but when I saw how my mom did her best just to cope up how she treated me back then when I give birth to her first grandchild I slowly forgive her.

That is why I can say that Rayleigh is a blessing in disguise when she came unexpectedly because she was the reason why we reconcile with my mom. You know when I know that I was pregnant I texted my mom, after the last text that I sent her that I'll forget her and my text goes like this;

“Hi ma, I am pregnant. You'll have a grand daughter soon.”

That's the only text I sent her and she replied;

“I am happy that I'll have grand daughter soon, but I am sad at the same time for you because I know how hard it is to be a mom”

From then on we started contacting each other again, when I give birth she visited me with her LIP and he was really a good man, I can see it. I even texted the guy before saying bad words to him but he never said anything. He was fond of my daughter like it was his grand daughter too.

I actually just texted my mom to reconcile because there's a saying that “You'll only know how hard it is to be a parent when you become a parent as well.” They also said that when you are not in good terms with your mom while giving birth you'll have hard time to give birth, that is why I did it. It's a selfish reason but ended up good. I believe on the sayings now, I did realize a lot when I became a mom myself.

Right now while writing this I am teary eyed remembering the past, and I was just very happy it's not too late for us with mom to have a nice memories together until her remaining days.

As of now, her happiness matters to me as well that's why I am hoping her LIP will come to our province soon so she will have company until the end.

The guy is really caring for my mom, he actually message me first saying I should pick up my mom when she arrived on the airport. He even when mom reach here to serve her dinner as he was sure that mom is already hungry for a long hours of trip. Long hours because she wakes up 4am to travel from Nueva Ecija to NAIA then from there to Mindanao.

He even said every morning he'll massage my mom's hands due to pamamanhid (nerve issues). It's really sweet to find someone who will take care of you unconditionally , that's why I want him to follow mom so they'll be together again.

He said he'll come over once he has enough money as he stopped working due to pandemic hayys.

Lead image from Unsplash (Ravi Patel)

Closing Thoughts

Now, I only want my mom to be happy because she had been through a lot as well. She deserves to be love and to be taken care of not just always taking care of her children.

I am happy she's back in our province, she's alone in Nueva Ecija without any relatives only her LIP good thing the guy was great.

Her Happiness Matters A Lot To Me Now! That's why I am doing my best to cope up with my behavior as well back then although I don't blame myself for doing so because somehow it made her realize something, I still know it was wrong because a child should always honor their mother and father no matter what!

Thank you for reading!

P.S, I thought I'll have holiday because rusty was on vacation for more than 24hrs LOL!

Date Published: December 1, 2021