There is this type of woman's beauty that is not so beautiful in every detail of their physical features but they look “hotter” than others because of this “sex appeals” thingy. Not all beautiful woman has sex appeal, maybe you already heard this line “she's pretty but she lacks sex appeal!”.

What is that sex appeal then? Well, it's a sexual attractiveness that an individual can attract the sexual or erotic interest of other people. This attraction can be physical or any other qualities or some traits of a person. This can a person's aesthetics, movements, voice, or can be their smell. This appeal can be enhanced by their adornments, clothing, perfume, or their style on how to carry themselves. But sometimes it can also be influenced by genetic, psychological, cultural, and other factors that can boost their sex appeal.

Why sex appeal of a woman can be a curse sometimes?

Well, this article is inspired by my own experiences. I admit “I am not that beautiful” not the “trophy” type of beauty but I can get a man if I want using my charm lol. Some of my classmates before told me “You are not that pretty but there is something in you that can make people glance at you and that is sex appeal”.

I have an ex before that told me one of my best physical assets is my “eyes”, it's because when I stare at a certain person I can lure them. I don't know, I didn't mean that, but yeah I have this hypnotizing power in personal lol. I cannot apply it virtually 😂. I am not writing this to brag or to show “how full I am with myself” but I want you to know, because of this so-called “sex appeal” I experienced sexual harassment and suffered countless nightmares and trauma.

Apart from my eyes, the way I walk and my style is adding to that sex appeal thing. I didn't mean to do my style just to have this appeal because since high school I am already like that. While my walking style is like sexy style, my hips are swinging lol. I didn't mean to walk that way, I dunno it's just that how I walk ever since and I am comfortable with it, also nobody influenced me how to do it, it comes out natural lol.

So why sex appeal can be a curse?

When a woman is attractive enough some evil men (not all men) will have some evil desire when they see that woman. They will play that woman in their mind to satisfy their desire, what's worst is that when they cannot control themselves they will find ways to get in touch with the girl and force them and do horrible things...

I was attempted to be raped when I was 16 years old

My stepfather attempt to rape me when I was 16 years old, I was very devastated because I treat him like a real father.. although it was just an attempt as I was able to escape his grasp, well it could be expected because he is an addict but somehow he is good before, maybe he was just influenced by demons “his desire”.

An addict sleep with me and do his things while hugging me

I rent at squatter area in Sta. Cruz Manila and the door of the room can be open easily, I rent near with my cousin room. She has live in partner when they quarrel with her partner she will sleep in my room, she has a key.. I thought she was the one sleeping beside me, thinking she was drunk and keep hugging me. Only to find out it was a man and he does his things living his sperm in the bed, ugghhh so gross! I was still fortunate he didn't force me or rape. After that incident, I transferred to another place, and the scariest part he was following me. He is a married man but an addict. So I transferred to another place, I went to my other cousin in Pasig.

Somebody watching me in the shower room

I used to live with my old best friend, and she has a male cousin. I didn't know her cousin was watching me while I was in the shower huhu! The guy was a shy type, you will never know he is that bad and he never approaches me rudely but little did I know he already saw my nakedness lol. I flee from the place right away after knowing it.

If a woman is poor and has this sex appeal she can be a target of danger from the opposite sex, some rich female can have their guards but a poor woman she only had herself. Actually not just attractive girls but all girls.

(Sorry if you read this, you know this is part of letting go of my darkest past that I suffered from sexual abuses)

Closing Thoughts

Due to this thing I experienced I suffered countless nightmares and trauma. I still have a lot of sexual harassment experience but those three are the ones I remembered most.

I didn't wish to have this aura, I am not that beautiful but still, I experienced so much danger from having this sex appeal that they said.

Please don't think I write this to brag myself, I just had a nightmare the other day that made me remember this. You can check my short post at noise about it.

https://noise.cash/post/lq7g57k3

Aside from bullies, I also suffered from this. That's why before I used to ask heaven “why life is shitting hard on me? Am I being cursed?”

But you know, I am still thankful I overcome all of it and still able to trust a man because I believe not all man is the same.

I am also blessed like the story of Daniel in the bible, if God is with you He will shut the lion's mouth (danger or death). I believe that God shut those demons, they already captured me in their hands but they cannot open their mouth to eat me. This is why I believe in miracles and I experienced it many times. I don't have the strength to protect myself but my God is bigger!

My life is an open book here, you can read not for you to judge but to learn a lesson that despite the ugliness side of the world there are still some reasons for us to go on and see the brighter side of it.

I hope men out there reading this to respect every woman, if you have a son teach them how to respect a woman regardless of what they are because you will never know the pain, nightmares and trauma she has to go through if you will do something horrible to her without her consent.

Based on the gif I attached, it's up to you if you agree with what I stated here if I have “appeal” or “no appeal” 😂😂😂

Thank you for reading!

P.S I was actually hesitant to publish this it sounds lifting my chair but already poured my effort so yeah think whatever you like 😂😂😂