@Eunoia 11 August 2021 more from that month

I had a bad day under the Sisyphean cycle.

These past likely days I could observe and felt I always repeat things I already did before, nothing had been changed or nothing come new, I woke up and expecting things to be done, then go back to the cycle and already know what will happen again, is short I don't see any excitement now, everything is just a repetition of the things I just did like caged in the time cycle rotations and I don't like it. **WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 11, 2021.** I don't know but I had a feeling that I won't write today, but due to boredom with something I am again here. Facing the screen and touching the keyboard, I don't have anything to do so instead of freezing the moment I should just write even I don't have really a topic at first.

Had you felt the same way I do, it's like everything we do is no changes, and doing the things consumed a large cargo of time already for we don't know how to end this scenario every day. Just this morning I have seen myself facing the screen yet nothing to do, after reading the pending I felt unmotivated so I go to walk for a bit, then come back to face the screen, yet freeze again. Open my phone and played the music so for a bit yet relaxed and ready to go. Sisyphean means the talks you do are seemingly endless or the feeling of you keep doing it over and over again and it's getting boring, as the last article of mine, maybe your curious where I get those words. When I read a book with words of deep I make sure I will list it and search for meaning. Not to intend of using it before but to at least when I again encounter them. Sisyphean is sometimes associated with bad days.

I am guilty of this, I felt like doing the things endlessly got the feeling of bad days, my mind is resetting and information relays are had something unmeaningful. I must say I had the battle now between myself and my soul. I just wish that my real me will get the victory. ****What is a bad day for you in writing here?**** had you got the scene that even you are willing to focus in the time and prepare your material and self no words and topic flows in your head? no choice but just looked the far away, might help to unwind but ended up nothing so you just says maybe tomorrow or next time could do?. Maybe sleep or nap could help indeed, a meditations, the aroma of scented candle or oils, the nature likely sounds in your backyard. Anything that could do help in the remaining the calmness between. **The bad-day writer happened because were foreseeing too much unrealistic level of coherence in writing.** little thing I am proud of sometimes is the writing one article daily, a jumbled idea I am trying to fit in a single article, some had found it hard to write consistently as the flow of words becomes greasy, and the mood is unpredictable yet I am still surviving and learning new plans to maintain the consistency of my Eunoia. You have bad-writing-day I am bad at writing.

One thing I am jealous of when I was a child is their penmanship, I always questioned why I had bad writing font and my sit-mate wasn't, maybe it's because of gender most females had these cute gestures in writings while some men also do the clean and neat way. I remember my friends always complaining about my writing style, my notes will be just mine and they will never get it from me, if they do they need to be always on my side to ask what I just written in my notes, sound curse right? haha. even teachers will complain about my writings. Also, there is the advantage of being ugly penmanship, they can't get my right signature style, even they do the appearance is really can't match. Of course maybe not for a bad writer like I do LOL. I had a bad day under the Sisyphean cycle.

Maybe it's just a normal thing somehow that we feel bored in a way that we just wanted to do other things, even my noise.cash wasn't that active anymore like the day before, I am looking for some changes anyhow. https://noise.cash/u/Eunoia Its actually started the first week this month, I always felt unmotivated on something not by writing but doing the normal habit I got every day, maybe I am too stuck and need to break and learn new thing from now, maybe I been seeking for something I don't know yet. I am honestly curious when some people tell me that quarantine makes them weak and anxious, is this a sign of mine that I was bored with the Sisyphean cycle? does their anxiety trigger in the fact that they are too tired of their daily same activity? nothing could make them excite under the waking daily? I am just a human too, so somehow I felt the same as they do. I wrote this article with an intention actually, I wanted to ask if had you felt the same as quite sometimes? hows was it? How did you do cope-up with this kind of distraction like mine? or not?. I really appreciate your comments and replays or DM in Telegram. Credits to Image Owners: Simon Mörtzschke https://unsplash.com/@simon_moer Priscilla Du Preez https://unsplash.com/@priscilladupreez Ashkan Forouzani https://unsplash.com/@ashkfor121 Jaël Vallée https://unsplash.com/@jv_photographer Matthew Henry https://unsplash.com/@matthewhenry Recent: https://read.cash/@Eunoia/with-a-pleasing-personality-6b8eec04#recentfour-latest-work-of-mine-under-the-week-span-inside-are-the-portal-link-for-you-to-read Hegira the flight to adulthood https://read.cash/@Eunoia/hegira-the-flight-to-adulthood-704350ca My brainpower toward the vaccine https://read.cash/@Eunoia/my-brainpower-toward-the-vaccine-ef05ca71 NEWS: Filipino community celebrated holiday in read.cash https://read.cash/@Eunoia/news-filipino-community-celebrated-holiday-in-readcash-524bd0bd Committing a commitment in LOVE https://read.cash/@Eunoia/committing-a-commitment-in-love-f967a0da Others: https://read.cash/@Eunoia/those-who-dont-ask-for-help-919ac9ce#others Noise. cash https://read.cash/@Eunoia/those-who-dont-ask-for-help-919ac9ce#bad-link Telegram https://t.me/Writer_Eunoia Email account https://read.cash/@Eunoia/those-who-dont-ask-for-help-919ac9ce#bad-link