My Birthday

Today is my birthday, I haven't been happy on my birthday for several years, I am no longer excited, I am no longer eager to reach it, because now I have grown up ... I have grown up and I understand that when my birthday comes, I will be one year older.

I don't like my birthday anymore, because it takes me away from my childhood and youth, it takes me to middle age, I was always afraid of middle age from childhood. I thought middle-aged people were neither emotional nor naughty in their lives, they were making plans for their aging. But I still feel the same 10 years old and that 14 years old girl, a girl who is excited about her future, a girl who is full of hope and aspiration, a girl who can sometimes be a devil, a girl who is dear to her mother and father.

Now I have no interest in celebrating my birthday anymore, I want to sit in a corner all day for my birthday and think about all the bad things I do... 😁🤭 I was joking... 😉 I like to sit in a corner for myself and think about my past life, how satisfied I am with these 33 years, and what I think about my future. I want to reach a conclusion on my birthday, a conclusion that will benefit my life, a conclusion that may be able to better digest the past years for me, and motivate me to continue.

As the years go by, I surrender to life more and more. Surrender to anything I can not. Surrender to the power that I don't have to change some things. Me and life are both patient, I am patient with the lessons it teaches me, and life is patient with my frustrations and tiredness. We both know what will happen in the end. We both continue. I as long as it allows, and it as long as itself wants. Yes, I finally surrender to it, which is the oldest and most experienced current in the world. Surrender to life, which has been going on for thousands of years and will continue for thousands of years. I surrender, surrender to you, "life".

I will meet you wherever I go. In every event I see you, I touch you, And sometimes I even hug you. Every moment is an event that reminds me of you. You are through all the events and experiences. You are among all hopes and dreams, You are behind joys and loves. And at the end of sorrows and losses. You appear at the beginning of a day, at sunrise, and at the end of the day, at sunset. Yes, life, I have hugged you tightly, until you leave me... 💚🍃

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