This is How My Monday Went.

I am writing with absolutely nothing remarkable in mind. My body is exhausted from work and my brain is just sending me the same words for fifteen minutes now: Sleep. Sleep. Sleep.

Time flew so fast and my inactivity has caused me to not post anything for the past (or almost?) two days in a row. Today, I will attempt to exercise my skills by typing just whatever comes to mind at the moment.

I am in this stage again. I personally call it 'system shutdown'. This is a situation where I just randomly get an idea of 'isolating myself from everything'. Though that doesn't happen entirely. I don't have a choice. I have to work, so I must get up from my bed, fix myself and talk to people, even my social battery is so drained.

This is the time when I leave all my social media unattended for hours, to days. I find this somehow good as I get more time for myself (which is just more time contemplating on my mistakes, or regret, or thinking about the good times that is quite impossible to happen again).

Simply said, it is when I go to an isolated room I designed inside myself, and lock all the doors and windows, turn off the lights, and just roll around the bed, or stay still, while looking at images the ceiling forms. Images may vary from my favorite persons, or the food I currently crave, or an embarrassing moment—you name it.

I constantly worry about what's happening outside but I don't even dare touch the locked door.

Do you have this stage, too?

Just earlier, I woke up feeling annoyed for no certain reason. Maybe, because it's Monday? I really don't know. Believe me, I even glared at my phone for ringing the alarm so early in the morning.

There are times when I just want to remain in the dream world, where I can be anyone, or anything I can. There's even this one instance that I am a mermaid in my dreams.

I drank a glass of water in an attempt to wake my organs up, but all of 'em were just like, "Nah, not today. Not in the mood for work today." I rolled my eyes for feeling this way. I just woke up but I find no energy to proceed the day.

I am telling you, I got enough sleep last night, but my body acted like it hasn't slept for days. And I am sure I have no sickness or disease as of the moment. I am just feeling lazy, to make it simple and obvious.

However, this isn't just being lazy to me. Even just opening my eyes become tiring and boring to me. No matter how hard I think of it, I just can't find anything to look forward to in this day.

So wait, I may sound really negative at this point. But this is what comes to mind right now, and I am just obeying the instruction of my brain to write it down.

So today, I wore earphones while traveling to work, and my eyes can't just open in fully awake mode. Good thing, my reflexes still don't betray me. It's like my whole system suddenly wakes up when it senses I am near my destination, and it's always right. This reflex of mine is still dangerous, though. Do you have it, too?

Okay, so a BTS' lively song blasted on my ears, but I can't even jam my head even slightly. I walked leisurely towards the office and immediately took a very short nap, until 8:00 am.

Another side effect of this season to me, is being inattentive.. well sometimes. Like last Friday, I lost my ATM card, maybe while riding on a passenger jeepney—it might have slipped out of my pocket or something, I couldn't care less.

That was last Friday, and today is Monday. I am well aware that I should get that replaced as soon as possible. But the urgency just ain't there. You see, the balance remaining there is not much anyway.

Nevertheless, I still tried my luck in a bank branch nearest to work when I finished my lunch. And to my best of luck, the queue is so long. I have waited in line for approximately twenty to thirty minutes, until I just lost interest again, and finally asked the guard about my purpose.

He said, I should just come back tomorrow morning as the line is still long and given the nature of my request, I can't make it on time. Guess why? Yes, it's a management mandate that this bank closes as early as 2:00 p.m. How inconvenient.

Therefore, my effort was just wasted. I went back to the office feeling so hot and tired because this summer is sometimes as annoying as days like these.

Now, I am already home and I just watched some Kpop stuff on Youtube, and I felt like I have to make this moment at least, quite productive, so here it is. An article that may not really be interesting to you at all. I mean, who would care about your story, Ellehcim? Just continue watching on Youtube. Just kidding though. It's kinda interesting, right? Right?

Adobo is what we ate for dinner. Usually, at this time, the television is turned on, but now, it isn't. I find it nice, it added more quietness to my inner self. I think silence and peace are what I really need these days.

I guess writing is some kind of therapy to me. Just writing these random rants and stuff made me feel better. Right now, while typing this, I feel like a heavy burden is gradually getting lighter, and I don't feel that much lethargic anymore.

What could I be like without writing? I can't even imagine it. This activity is that simple, but works wonders. Come to think of it, writing kills my boredom.

It helps me release unidentifiable feelings, and make me feel better in the process. Not gonna lie, I am kinda smiling right now. Maybe it's a good thing I opened read.cash now, and just started writing randomly.

And now that I let this all out tonight, I think my system shutdown is at its last chapters, maybe?

Let's see tomorrow.

Hello there!

This might be kinda different again because I just wrote without much thinking. It's a raw expression of what I am feeling at the moment, so you can just think of it as a diary entry. :))

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