September 2nd, 1st Birthday with BCH! **I make mistakes. I learn. I age, and I grow. I fall and rise, even if that would include crawling, walking, running, or trying to fly. Everything instilled little and major lessons to me, formed who I am today.** **I have accustomed myself to think that I am an ordinary girl in her twenties, always does her best, always aims for good things, and always anxious of the future.** **I always have doubts in myself, but when I try to look…
How My Birthday Went When I come to think of it, there is one more birthday gift I received from God that I did not realize until now. He really works in a mysterious way. A few days before my birthday, *(which is today, and thanks a lot for all of your greetings),* I have written an article about my own thoughts of being a year younger, and I presented some Insights of a 21 Year Old me. I forgot that I am going 22 a few days after, so it just made me smile a bit.…
Fourteen | 08:02 I went to bed early. All the lights are already off, and I am just relying to the faint light my phone gives off. For some reason, the dogs of the neighbors are barking nonstop, so ours also joined the party. It's honestly annoying, but it's okay, at least I don't feel alone. My green tea is still not done. I am supposed to finish it while watching my favorite show, but internet sucks, so I used up this irritation I am feeling to just write down what…
Fourteen: 07:03 I think everything's going completely well. Some things still make me worry. It sucks, that feeling when you thought all is okay, but then it's not. **First** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/fourteen-1112-5abbea66 **Second** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/fourteen-0802-0a6fea1e *I have thought of contacting Devon, but it's quite late right now.* Maybe, tomorrow morning. I am still not sure, because I don't know if I should do that. I was only able to talk to him and…
Dear Diary, All is Well. It is not even five in the afternoon, yet it is so dark already. Maybe it's because of the thick clouds that surrounded the sky. There is also a mild rain that has been pouring for twenty minutes now. What is the weather in your place right now? I just finished brushing my teeth and gargling a warm salt-water solution. You see, even just a piece of a chocolate cookie caused my gum to ache again. My left neck still has that swollen lump, and it is…
Few More Days Only few days left and I am gonna go back to work again. I am figuring out ways that I may utilize the remaining vacation days, so there won't be any regrets. ***First of all, let me use this opportunity to give a loud and proud shout out to all of my amazing sponsors.*** I have always missed the notifications whenever you send me sponsorships, and I only found almost all of them in that certain day when I tried to sweep out all my remaining unread…
Fourteen | 04:15 I always miss some days to write. Have I grown a bit lazier? Wait, is *lazier* a word? Never mind. It is almost nine in the morning and I am trying to think of things I should do to make this day worth it. **Oh, first, the** ***quarantine*** **area where I stayed.** I went back to my original room last night. It felt new again, at the same time, it felt sentimental. Mom called out for breakfast, but I refused to go; I am still writing this. I will sanitize…
Break Time! I deserve this rest. I should not be guilty. I know God made all happen, that it will end up with me having this *"restful vacation"*. **These are the words I tell myself whenever I feel guilty.** You see, there is this thing I sometimes do before sleeping. I evaluate everything that happened throughout the day. What I did, what I did not, the words I said, the thoughts that crossed my mind, and in the end, *I analyze if I made the twenty four hours count.* There…
Fourteen | 01: 17 Friday morning. We left home at five in the morning. After all, I am the one left along in this stuff. Only mom cares. Because I didn't act as how they wanted me to, now I am left alone to work on this. ❄️ ***Fourteen*** Series ****Fourteen | 11:12**** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/fourteen-1112-5abbea66 ****Fourteen | 08:02**** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/fourteen-0802-0a6fea1e ****Fourteen | 07:03**** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/fourteen-0703-e298711e…
Ever felt Lonely? Same. There are days I feel that I am fighting alone. No one checks up on me. Whenever I asked for help, I always feel their reluctance to assist. It feels both embarrassing and disappointing. I regret asking, so I just do hit *"Unsend"* or *"Delete Message".* **Have you experienced that, too?** Like thinking lots of times before sending a message to someone, then you'll regret it after, because you'd think, *"Why did I expect? I know he/she doesn't care."*…
Fourteen | 00:00 How have you been? Oh, it's a Sunday. I should have written yesterday, but I hope I am not yet too late in updating you. ❄️ ***Fourteen*** Series https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/dear-diary-all-is-well-df9d4c25#fourteen-series ****Fourteen | 11:12**** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/fourteen-1112-5abbea66 ****Fourteen | 08:02**** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/fourteen-0802-0a6fea1e ****Fourteen | 07:03**** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/fourteen-0703-e298711e ****Fourteen…
Always Beautiful to Me. She is indeed beautiful. My outer and inner eyes said it in unison. There is no point in denying, beauty surrounds my mom. We have different views of beauty. And it confirms the most used saying, ***"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder."*** I don't really want to care about how others may see what's beautiful to me. Their opinions and perspectives can not change my eyes that see beyond the physical attributes. ***When it comes to beauty, I feel proud…
Blogging Journey with BCH: July and August Report (feat. September updates) I have already said to myself: *don't report anymore.* It has been overdue, and no one asked. *But I could not bring myself to settle not reporting my progress. Even if it's late, it's better than never.* **It has been a while since I wrote an article relating to my blogging and BCH journey.** It's mid-month of September, and nothing would stop me from sharing my journey for the past two months. *How…
Let this Article Distract You. I love to write TO-DO lists. I either write them in a piece of paper, or I note them in my head. The lists is usually long per day, I am often detailed you know. The thing is, I always wonder where those lists go in the middle of the day. ***Distractions***. Distractions. What are they? They are the *commercials* to our supposed to be smooth-going plans. They are the additional *fatty goodies* to our initially strict diets. Mostly in my case,…
Throwback Thursday: A Memorable Celebration I did not receive flowers nor pricey gifts. We did not go to an expensive restaurant to eat. Yet, the warm kind of bliss still lives in my memories, rent-free. Recently, I have read a few articles talking about celebrations. Through those, I was able to remember mine, and realize, that *I have celebrated countless times in my twenty-two years of existence. One thing haven't changed. I always celebrated with my family.* This is my…
Weekend with Nature Have you ever tried giving yourself a short time to just stop doing whatever you're busy with? I mean, a simple moment of just forgetting all the hustle and looking over your window? **To feel the fresh air you almost forgot how to feel because you've been used to aircon or electric fans now.** It's the kind that relaxes the nose, because it's fresh. Oh, is the air polluted in your area? That's so sad. Maybe there's no trees or plants of some sort to…
Dear Diary, I want to just Sleep. Today, I wanted to sleep more, but some unexplainable thoughts visit my mind, and somehow wakes me up over and over again. When I try to remember the images, my mind was suddenly blank. **Sunday, September 19.** I think I've slept as late as 3 a.m. the day before. I was so engrossed in what I was watching, and I did not notice the time. I wanted to wake up at nine or ten to at least get six hours sleep but mom did not want that. She wanted…
Dear Diary: This too, shall pass. Yes, it's a bit late again. Less than thirty minutes before eleven o' clock. My eyes were glued to the phone. My mind's blank, and I just wanted to feel something. I failed to write the second article for yesterday, and I think I'll barely include this as a today article, because it's less than two hours before Thursday comes. *Darlings, I was so out of it again.* I intentionally left my DMs unattended in messenger and replied to them an…
Teardrops on my Mirror Another day has passed. You did your best today. Even you could not help but think of different things, you still pushed through and made this day count. Now, you washed your face, brushed your teeth, and prepared to sleep. Then, you looked at the mirror. ***Your eyes could not miss every single dark spot you could see.*** The wrinkles that are not that visible, and your double chin. Your assymetrical face, your undefined jawline, messy eyebrows,…
The Notes: A Friend's Thoughts They said a friendship has this never-ending series of sweetness and fights. It's what makes the bond stronger, and real. I guess they're right. I am always switching between Love U, Hate U, and the process repeats like a broken record. There are things you do that touches me deeply. And there are those that annoy me, and just get right to my nerves. You can be a mom sometimes that gives me powerful pieces of advice, but most of the time, you…
The Notes: A Friend's Thoughts Pt. 2 This morning, I explored through my old diary these past few years, and my entries made me laugh. I had an eventful highschool life that started when our friendship was born. Part 1: **The Notes: A Friend's Thoughts** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/the-notes-a-friends-thoughts-06f4e455 I guess meeting you is one of The Most Beautiful Moment in Life of mine. Bullying ended, boring days were finally over, and I found colors in my dull world.…
The Last Sunday of the Vacation Sunday, 26th of September. It's officially a month of my unexpected, slash extended vacation. How swift time runs. I always find it hard to catch up. ***I still could not believe that I was not at work in almost the whole of September. I was at home, and the past four weeks were a roller coaster of emotions, but a bundle of memories I'll surely remember.*** *Week one was the most difficult one.* It was a mixed emotion of fear, worries, and a…
Tuesday: I Choose Joy! After fixing the bed and other stuff, I spent a minute or two to meditate and pray. Did some inhale-exhale sessions while uttering my morning prayers, and drank water afterwards. My eyes are feeling itchy. I woke up multiple times earlier because I had recurring dreams, and weird enough, I remember some parts of them, but not all. They are not weird as in bad though, maybe a bit scary, but I remember the good parts, and I think I did not have a bad…
Dear Diary, Let's Go Back! Another day is about to end. Just earlier this morning, I made a declaration that I will choose happiness. Right now, I am writing this with a smile on my face. ***I went out at exactly eight in the morning.*** I messaged the Municipal Health Office staff about the whereabouts of the doctor I am planning to meet, telling him the reason why I wasn't able to reach the doctor, because all offices operated half day yesterday. He responded by saying…
The Notes: A Friend's Thoughts Pt. 3 I got some free time again, so I read our chats, from most recent to old, as far as I could reach. I laughed, I cried a bit, and I felt sentimental. *The Notes* Series **The Notes: A Friend's Thoughts** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/the-notes-a-friends-thoughts-06f4e455 **The Notes: A Friend's Thoughts Pt. 2** https://read.cash/@Ellehcim/the-notes-friends-thoughts-pt-2-ca4adc19 ***It was as if I felt the emotions I felt when I messaged you…
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