I graduated from college last July 15, 2022, which means it's been more than 2 months already since I became a full-time Professional Self-employed from being a full-time College Student.
While it is expected that after graduating from college, I'm supposed to be looking for work or I'm supposed to be working in the city now with my corporate job like how my batch mates from college did, I decided to take on a different path, which is kinda unusual for others.
Even before I graduated from college, I have always wanted to be a freelancer where I can manage my own time, work on my own schedule, and be my own boss. I wanted to be free from anyone bossing me around or being scolded when things mess up even if it's not my fault and being blamed for things I didn't do. That's why I embarked on the journey of being a full-time freelance worker to be free from unnecessary noise.
But is it worth it? Am I not going to regret this decision in the future? Will I not feel left behind when I see others ascending the corporate ladder and being the actual managers and team leaders themselves while I'm still stuck to where I am now? What if I will not be successful with this venture that I decided to take? Will I achieve my goals and dreams with this type of job I want to pursue?
These are actually the questions that have been living in my mind rent-free for days and even weeks now because I'm at a point where I feel like everything I'm doing is pointless and will not lead me anywhere. Sometimes, I imagine the future and in our college reunion, everyone is already successful, driving their own cars, buying their own houses, and traveling to local destinations and foreign countries, while I'm still far away from the future I imagined it to be.
Don't get me wrong. These negative thoughts only creep in when I feel so burnt out already or too exhausted from doing all of my side hustles, part-time and full-time jobs all at the same time. While it may seem to have a negative impact on my life, sometimes, I just really can't help but overthink the future.
Some of you probably know that I have a lot of goals and that I will do everything to achieve them. But sometimes, I also can't help but doubt myself and my abilities and think that what if I'm already doing my best but my best isn't even good enough? However, I also know to myself that I can do and be more.
My ultimate goal in the freelancing world is not just to write a lot of blogs and articles for different clients and companies to earn a living. I also want to establish my own writing and marketing agency someday so that I get to help other aspiring writers who also want to be content writers. I also want to help others jumpstart their journey so they could achieve their dream of being a freelance writer like how someone helped me before by trusting in my abilities.
And I know I wouldn't be able to achieve that goal if as early as now, I'm already losing the fire burning inside of me to push harder in everything I do.
I don't actually know the point of this article. I just want to express the thoughts running in my mind now.
Also, I just want to share this song that I got to listen to when I was searching for motivational songs to uplift my spirit. It's called "Believe" by Fearless Soul.
"To achieve you must believe,
You can live out all your dreams,
Persevere you'll make it through,
What you need is all in you."
I just love this song so much because the lyrics are so powerful and really motivating. If you are also feeling the same way I feel now, you might want to listen to it and play it on repeat.
That's all for now. Thanks for reading!
There is a point where you have to decide what to do. Like doing a job in a corporate world or freelancing. By the way, freelancing is also a job. You can convert it into a business that you plan to do - making an agency. Ask yourself what makes you happy and how you want to see yourself in the future, hope you will get the answer to what to choose.